i went fullerton hotel. help out at my client's presentation.
reception!! helped with the registration.. and then listened to the presentation and then slacked..

well.. alot of people. quite an experience for me. although i was tired in the end, legs aching. but i had to say, i enjoyed it.

happy birthday boy! may happiness and good health be with you ALWAYS!

my darling boy. will always be my brave darling..

i bought a small slice of cake for him (hoping that his sugar level wont shoot up so high).. he's happy! with a small slice of cake.

contented. 知足。thats what i see from him. thats what i mean.

i dreamt of him. i dreamt of alot of ballons. a surprise of him with alot of ballons appearing infront of me. i saw the smile on his face. i smiled too.

if only.. if only the dream was real.

had lunch with a customer. not too bad, although i kept quiet all the way.. lol.

2 hrs lunch. 2 hrs of 'so-called lecture' abt the latest market updates and property updates. but i did enjoyed it.

i promised.. to be more participative and not be anti-sociable.

人一定要学会知足。
其实说的容易，做的难。。
我自己也在学习当中。。

我很寂寞。。是不是当有一个人等了你很久，你就要接受他呢？

我好想，为了结束我一个人的生活。。 可是我能够过了我自己那关吗？

i have to stay at home.. i need to stay at home.. cos only i can handle him.

BUT.. i feel so much like going out..

haiz...

friday. i am tired, seriously.
i have a huge responsibility and i dunno if i can cope or handle well.

everyone's dependent on me.. and i hope i am doing the correct thing..

if u were here.. if i could depend on someone.
but nobody would be willing to shoulder the huge responsibiity with me..

and so.. i am back to square one.

thurs. went golf.. after a long long time...

and i felt that i missed the sport.. and i am getting addicted to it.
hey! its fun and shiok.. especially if you do the swing well.. hahaha



my golf posture.. dunno if its good.. but hmm, i can practice to be good! hahaha..

how i wish you were here with me.. then i dun have to face it alone..

u chose to be quiet. because u din know what to say. but do u know that no matter what u say, i will be consoled and contented and happier.

long time since i updated my blog.. alot of things happened recently...

ah boy was admitted to hospital.. he has got diabeties. i was upset, am still upset, i cried, alot.. couldnt sleep well at night, lost my appetite.

now.. we are adjusting.. and getting used to it..

ah boy.. is a brave, strong and clever boy. he is somehow even stronger than us. i can feel that he knows what is happening.. and he chose to face it bravely and happily. so we should even be more brave than him.

"boy.. dun worry.. ah yi will always be with you and take good care of you.. you must be guai k.. "

life is all about gains and losses.. u gain some, u lose some.
everything happens for a reason. it happens cos it wanna make us stronger.
and i strongly believe in that..

he listens.. and i talk slowly to him. i learnt to be patient with him. as long as u talk to him, he will listen, that is ah boy. im sorry for not being patient with you in the past. i know you will make it through. i know you are strong and clever. and based on what i know of you, maybe very soon, you will be able to do the injections for yourself.

加油， 阿姨一定会陪着你的。