Kemp - P5 Camp

Kemp went for his P5 Camp this morning.  3 days 2 night. 

Suddenly I keep thinking what will he be doing..... 

Have fun.  Enjoy and have no regrets. 

Finally went swimming today.  After a lonnnggg time.....

Nostalgic

Trampoline-ing Again

Brought Kemp and Keane, Winni and her brother.  2 hours of trampoline-ing.  I didnt really jump but was tired enough just chasing after Keane. 

Tiring Saturday.  Always.  Keane is talking alot these days.  Happy that he is doing that. 

July is coming to an end soon.  Time flies, especially after 30s.  

Its Mooncake Festival and very soon it will be Christmas and New Year again.  

This 2 years have been bumpy for me... I have many a times heard Mum said that she wants to go back to the house at Blk 218.  Was shifting a bad choice?  It seems that The shift made Kemp and Mum lost their friends.... 

Whatever.  I am tired. 

做錯了，修正一下，傷心了，痛哭一下，

厭倦了，休息一下，絕望了，放空一下。

但無論如何，千萬不能倒下。

鼓勵自己撐一下，一切都將會過去。

祝福大家都能心安自在。

压力 x 3

好累。 我不想管了。

有时候，真的不想活了。

Bad start.  Train fault and I only reached office at 10am. 

But then overall the day was still okay. 

Working day is over.  Its time to rest and tomorrow is a new day again. 

A hot Saturday afternoon. 

Doing one of my favourite.  Cycling at East Coast Park.

Sick and Tired

I hate Fridays like that. 

I hate everything. 

Sunday. Clouds. Fluffy.

Yesterday

Hectic day.  Morning rushed to wake up for a 10am briefing.  Was Raining heavily.  Alighted at Raffles Place so that I wouldnt get wet in the rain.  Wanted to get breakfast but queue was long everywhere.  Only managed to get a puff at Polar.

Walked to office.  Didnt get my usual tea because I was running late.  Rushed my morning work and went to the briefing. 

Finished briefing and I had so many things to follow up.  Wanted to leave early for lunch so that I can go for acupuncture.  But in the end didnt manage to leave any early.  Rushed to acupuncture and rushed to finish my lunch. 

Rushed to finish work.  Everything seems urgent and everybody seems to be rushing me.  3 plus 4.  Just when I thought I can happily finish my work and leave on the dot for a good dinner and a chilling night, Kemp dropped a bomb on me. 

Called at first to say he wont be going for badminton as he was sick.  Then called again to say that he forgot to pass me the consent form for the parent teacher meeting that day, and the teacher will be calling me shortly. 

Teacher called.  Told me that Kemp told her that I wasnt free for the meeting that day.  Lies again and many more misbehaviour.... Sigh

My mood was greatly affected after that.... Almost wanted to skip dinner but other than home, I had nowhere else to go.....

Still went for the dinner as I didnt want to go home so early.  Had a very nice dinner. 

Perhaps everyone had their own problems and so when I started to whine about my problems, I didnt get a very good response... Which I can understand but somehow, I felt alone again......

Its a Chocolately Night

Counselling

Today my 2nd counselling appointment.

Kemp went with me.  Counselling is all about being a listening ear.

I have always been a good listening ear.  Hearing me talk and talk is so unusual....

Before my counselling appointment today, I actually dreamt of today's counselling session yesterday night... Was I that afraid and resistant to go for counselling?  I am not too sure.....

Recharging

Talking about recharging.  

People are tired at work hence they go out of work to recharge.  

For me, my workplace is a place of recharging because I get tired at home.

Opposites. 

Dad's Favourite Dinner

Smith Street Hawker Centre.  Full of old hawkers.  Such tasty food. 

Keane Day

Kemp is out the whole day.  Went to see the NDP show with his P5 classmates.  

Actually I wanted a day out for myself.  But then....sigh...  anyway, I decided to fetch Keane.  Only going for my facial for awhile and I will be back to join them..... 

Conclusion

Being on leave and going out with family is more tiring than working...... 

My one and only Dream

Stay in a condo, with swimming pool and gym facilities.  

Open concept kitchen.  I hope I can accomplish that when my parents are still around.  

But no hopes at all..... 

Unless I strike Toto..... 

What will you remember most about me if I am gone one day

寂寞

I am lonely. 

寂寞的我。