Everything happens for a reason

I keep telling myself this. 

I keep telling myself this. 

Everything happens for a reason. 

十年

Yesterday I was looking through my past diary entries.  I saw the entry in 2007.  

I asked “what will I be like in 10 years time”. 

Now is 2017.  10 years have passed. 

Time flies.  How many 10 years do I have.... 

The GREENS near my house

Appreciating Mother Nature

我不选人，人选我。

Supposedly to have a RM introducing his friend to me.  Actually he wanted to introduce to LY but she wasnt keen so asked him if could introduce to me.  He was okay..... but that was about 1 month ago?  

No news thereafter.  

Although I appeared nonchalant about it, but I actually felt quite upset. 

有一点挫败感。

I guess I have reached an age where even if I dont choose people, people will choose me. 

35岁的我。 

PMS

Recently my PMS have been really quite bad.  

This week is it... I hope it doesnt get bad. 

When can I let go

I think what I told the counsellor was correct.  Reason why I am always throwing my temper at home is because I have high expectations of them. 

I expect my parents to be able to take care of themselves, able to spend their time wisely and actively.  I expect Kemp to really take care of himself well, In terms of health, weight, studies.  

Why the high expectations?  Is so that I can let go of them, so that I can lead my own life peacefully, so that I dont have to always worry about them.  

But when can I ever let go?  Not that I am not willing to but somehow somewhere I am always needed..... 

When can I ever let go

Finally... But...

Finally picked up my stuff to go swimming today...... But the competition pool was closed for maintenance so the training pool was packed with kids!!! 

Sigh.... Din manage to swim after all.  

Disappointing.... 

Finally.... Exercise time.

I finally went exercise today.  After a long while.... 

2 years. I just need another 2 years. 2 Christmas and 2 CNYs.  

I hope I can survive till then.  I hope my parents are lucky enough to wait till then. 

I hope my this decision this time round will make them happy. 

Service Recognition Award

Capitol Theatre.  15 Sep 2017. 

My 15 years. 

原来，时间真的不能倒回。

所有的遗憾，真的没有第二次机会从来。 

A Public Holiday. Peace and Quiet.

Public holiday.  I am supposed to go my Auntie's place for a gathering today.  

Feeling tired and disappointed after scolding Kemp that day.  Decide to give today a miss.

Alone at home.  Such days are very seldom.  Always going out with them or staying at home with them around.  Seldom alone at home. 

Such a day.  Not one of my happiest day.  But definitely one of those quiet day.  Peace and quiet is what I desperately need now......