Been feeling down and unwell for the past week.  Started to feel dizzy since last Sat.  

Not sure if its my nervousness, anxiety, menses, ear infection or what.  After 2 months of ear block (Jun to Aug), I felt better and I wanted to resume my swimming.  Went swimming immediately after the 7th month ended.  After going swimming for 2 times, I think my ear blocked again.  But by then, I was worried about my menses, that it may come early again this month (it came early for the past 2 months).  

And then last Sat, my dizziness hit me.  Then menses came on the following Monday night. Dr Louise says my dizziness is because of my menses.  But now, a week later, my menses ending soon but my dizziness still around.  

Seriously seriously I dunno what is happening.  

Worry, anxiety, uncertainty. 

Worry worry worry

All I do is worry.. all the time. 

My parents’ health, the current situation, the uncertain times, my finances, my own health… 

All I do is worry.  One after another.  

I am so tired.  And lost. 

Feeling…. Lost

Feeling lost and thinking about alot of things these days. 

My finances mainly.  Havent been doing much for my parents’ money all these years.  And recently, because of my spending last year, I am going to eat in into their money which made me scared.  

Sigh.  My own Income stagnant.  Their extra money stagnant.  Career stagnant.  Everything is stuck.  

I dunno what to do with their money.  Investments etc, I am afraid of losing. 

Sigh.  How I wish somebody can help me, with no motives, no other intentions.  

Registered for a couple of investment courses, haven started, not sure what kind of enlightnment I will get after the courses… 

Ghim Moh Market…. Food

Had a sudden craving for Char Kway Teow.  Queued for i think at least an hour?  

Taste I think not bad. But I still prefer the one at Hong Lim.  

My Brunch on a Saturday. 

On leave and out

On leave and went out alone.  A long time since I am alone.  And I actually do enjoy the alone time.  

But hectic morning.  My usual leave cover had to take urgent leave and so, I had to ask others to cover us.  And because they are unfamiliar, I couldnt leave it to them.  Whilst on the way out, busy checking emails and checking messages.  

Couldnt really enjoy my facial cos my phone kept vibrating.  Sigh. 

Simple lunch at 313 Somerset.  Just zoning out before going for my next appointment.  

Back to swimming after a super long time, since end Jun (my 1st vaccine).  

I feel alive after swimming.  Swimming is a good exercise, most importantly it helps me to destress.  

I envy those who can go swimming as and when.  If I ever stay in a condo, I will be for sure utilise the swimming pool as much as I want.  Before I can achieve that (I dont know if I can ever achieve that), I guess the other best option is staying at my current place where the swimming pool is a walk away.  

Be grateful.