a guy i met.. in my dreams (II)

i miss him. he has not appeared in my dreams this week.

what have you been doing? have you forgotten abt me?

pls dun leave me alone. you made my heart beat fast. you made me yearn to see you.

slack slack slack

this weekend, i did nothing but slack at home.
bored bored and bored. :-(

saturday afternoon. i passed by boon lay seconday, my school!! now, its like a deserted place, haunted school. no matter how deserted or how haunted it looks, i still have wonderful memories of it..

the long sheltered pathway that i always walk before reaching the school. the classrooms, the science lab, the home economics room, the assembly hall, the canteen, the D&T rooms, almost everything...

i remember those quiet saturdays where we have to come back for our dance.. all ECAs are on saturdays, but only our dance troupe ends at the latest time, we end at 5pm, by the time we pack and leave, its almost 5 plus 6. the school is quiet except for us, making a grand exit.. hahaha!

AND there are times where the hall is being used for other purposes, and thus we have to use the canteen for our dance practices. well, as u know, the canteen, there has got lots of tables and benches, and the floor is dirty. so what we will do is, the whole lot of us (including guys, seniors or juniors) will push the heavy benches and tables to one side, and after the space is created, we will then clean the floor. mop, sweep, just to make the space cleaner for our dance practices..

hahaah, yah, it sounds tough and dirty, but these forms important parts of my memories.. how much i yearn to go back to the past but time just tick tock, seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes pass by.....

how long has it been since i left this place? 8 years....

bad friday

friday. down. reached office, first thing i knew was that market was down. sharks, prices down again.

then, i suddenly feel sick before lunch. argh, dunno why, felt so nausea and broke out in cold sweat. scary sia! wanted to go home so much... took super urgent half day and went home.

what a morning!

after eating my lunch, i felt better already. i dunno if its because i am too hungry. haiz, then i must put more biscuits and food in office liao!

thurs nite. i went to yvonne's new shop at toa payoh for my hair treatment. well, the place is small but cosy.. and the colour she use for her shop is brown in base, my latest favourite colour!! nice!

after my hair treatment, i went to toa payoh for a short walk. i passed through this sports stadium where i suddenly found this place so familar. ohh, there was once chris brought me here to watch a performance by this soka (japanese religion) association, his mother was in the performance as well.. no wonder it was so familar.. hahaha!

memories memories memories.. i love it but hate it because i cannot go back to it.

crab dinner again! finally went to the new place at henderson.. as usual, the crabs were fresh and nice but too bad, not spicy enough. but also good lah, if not the redness on my face will come back again if i ate too spicy food. hahaha!

nearly couldn't enjoy my dinner.. because of a customer and the stupid kh. and probably, stupid me bah. but glad that it was settled in the end. well, doesnt matter if my big boss's thanks was sincere and true or not, i am just glad that everything's settled and pray that nothing happens tmr...

ohh.. only knew today that ct was leaving. so sad, another good khaki of ours leaving again. oh well.. :(

a guy i met.. in my dreams

he's quiet. he's shy. he's cool. he dun talk much.

he talks to me, but not too much. when i try to tease him, he smiles to himself.

but he's clever i think. he does the things he thinks is right.

the things he do or says makes me laugh and irritated at the same time. makes me smile. and hate him at the same time.

he has got sweets. he eats it himself, not offering to other people. i asked him, "is this sweet nice?" he offers to me, saying, "this is peppermint, dun eat too much, makes ur stomach burn.. "

cool, short and sweet, isnt it?

i like quiet guys. they're cool and mysterious..

:D

saturday afternoon. slacking at home. 女人病，痛了一个下午。。

started trading on tuesday. hehe but prices fell the next day due to a news. lol!
but end of friday, the prices were at least back to normal, well, at least for the counter i entered, the buying price was back to the price i bought at on tuesday..

for the past week, i think my pms was damn bad. i felt damn down, moody and temperamental.. but anyway i am glad that it is over.

i saw chris's uncle today at the mrt. i remember this uncle of his because he was very nice to me other than his mother. he looked the same. think he saw me or maybe not. he could definitely recognise me if he saw me.

growing up = worries

when we were young as kids, we din have anything to worry about. give me a sweet and i'll be happy. give me a sweet drink and i'll be happy. if i had play, i'll be happy.

schooling is fun too. i had lots of friends, teachers, activities, classes. i hated some, loved some. i miss dancing. i miss classes. i miss my friends. i miss the times i had in school.

poly life was average. well, it was also school. but it wasn't the same as before. i had friends too, but somehow it was harder to get true friends. i had activities too, but it wasn't as simple as before.

i studied hard. graduated and came out to work.

working life.. means growing up.

growing up means worries worries and more worries.

work. people are more complicated. things become complicated too. or is it as we grow up, we tend to complicate things, thus making more worries for ourselves?

we are afraid that we can't get a good job. we are afraid that our bosses are not good to us. we are afraid that there is no career advancement in what we are doing. if we change job, we are afraid that the new environment might be worse or not better than the current one. but then, change is inevitable. people ought to move on and not stay on..

worry that i dun earn enough to support my family or give them a good life. as we grow older, we have to worry abt finding a partner, a good one. worry abt if the guy is good, if the guy earns enough to support in future.

worry abt our own health as well as our loved ones'. getting paranoid, worry abt this worry abt that.

if manage to get married and have kids, we have to worry abt the kids and the life ahead... and the list goes on.........

life gets tiring as time pass by... gets tiring when we get older...

friday night. okay, finally ml and yj and yj's friend came to my house for mahjong. it was a torturing one. well, before that, ys drove his brother's car to work and gave me a lift home before going to sch for his lesson. and i told ys, first time i dread playing mahjong. hahaha..

so they came.. as ml really din play mj before, the game was veryy slowww..

i tried to be patient la.. but think i just bo chap towards the end. yj was worst, damn impatient in the begining. i scolded him..

ys and the rest went to watch harry potter, midnight show. he said probably they would go prawn fishing after the movie.

my mahjong ended at 2am.. i slept and ys called me at 4am saying that the prawn fishing was cancelled.. so Zzzzz!

met him online the next day, saturday. he said that my voice damn sexy when he called me when i was sleeping.. hahhaa! anyway he is not the first one who said that.. the first one was ic! hahaha..

oh ya, the irritating chris called me again! background noises again! 9pm plus when i was in the midst of the mahjong game. stupid!!

saturday noon. went amk hub with my family. newly opened, alot of shops!

had dinner at the foodcourt. the food there, not bad i think.

ml (yj's friend) told me that he wanted to learn mahjong. so when i met yj online on sat afternoon, he told me that he will arrange mj on sunday afternoon. well, by then i had already arranged to play mj with ys, ic and sj on sat night. but i told him i was okay, without knowing how late i'll end on sat night.

went ys house to play mj. we played till 5am, went for breakfast and reached home at 6am. had 3 rounds of mj, i think our speed has increased, haha!

and so.. i cancelled the mj session on sunday afternoon with yj. partly cos i was tired, partly cos i din want to play with someone who has no idea about mj, partly cos of something that yj said to me on sat afternoon.

when i was talking online with yj, he said to me, that i was getting along with ml, and that it was good. so he asked me if i liked ml. i said he was okay as a friend. and then yj said that he had to talk to me. i guess its regarding ml. but i am not sure what he wants to tell me though.

anyway ys told me that we must make our weekends happening.. ok, ur wish is my command, happening enough this weekend? hahaha!

friday night. watched transformers! with ys. his second time watching the movie. haha! this is the second time that he is watching a movie twice. the first movie was tokyo drift. ho ho!

this show is good. with all the effects, it also have some touching scenes. i like it when a show has touching scenes, makes you cry..

went to eat dim sum at geylang after the movie. it was a long time since we chatted. actually i feel very comfortable with him, i can tell him all my recent happenings without any hold-back, without feeling paiseh or anything. he is one guy whom i think girls will feel very comfortable with but normally such guys, they seldom have the girls falling for them. a girls-guy i call it. if they are unlucky, they will meet girls who will take advantage of them.

yeah so i updated him with my stories, including the c** interview, the ml story and why i was pissed off with him that time.. haha!

reached home at 5am lor. yawn.. no detoxification, no beauty sleep. sigh, i had not better have more than 2 such times like that a week. lol! not good for me sia..

aquarius man

aquarius man. someone who is very determined to get the things they want.

can be very determined when they choose to love you.

but can be very determined also if they choose to leave you.

hardhearted. stuborn.

interview!

had interview at c** at 7pm today. private banking at the branch.

i was punctual. she was late. hahaha the interview lasted for half an hr i think.

woo! the headhunter's questions was good! most of it came out! lol! lucky i was prepared.. hahaha!

when she described the job scope to me, i could already feel the stress! gosh! suddenly i felt so glad that work at dbs isn't that stress. haha! the job was like so demanding, expecting soo much, just her description alone made me felt the stress..

a few questions she asked me. how is ur health? how many medical leave did u take last year? this year? any family commitments? any plans to get married? any financial liabilities? employees at c** has to be well grommed, make up, blusher, eye shadow, lipstick, hair tied if long, covered shoes only and wear jacket at all times. working on two saturdays and resting on one saturday in a month. no fixed bonus only a performance incentive at the end of the year. service banker they call it. counter, supporting rm, doing reports, everything.

.... well well... we'll see how it goes.

saturday afternoon. i am angry with ys. firstly, his friend, sj sort of hinted to me that i am sticking to them like nobody's business. then, as dgua is going back on sunday, i suggested mahjong and ktv thereafter in the night. he said that got to ask dgua if he's tired and that i shouldn't force ppl to do things that i want to do.

!!@#@#@##

hanging out with them also wrong. arranging to meet them also wrong.
damnit!

saturday night. yj asked to meet me together with his friend. well, i went as i was angry with ys and the rest of them..

we met at dian xiao er at vivo and went kbox after dinner.

his friend, ml, is such a decent looking guy. but guess what? behind his decent looks, there are lots of dark stories.

well, yj has been trying to introduce guys to me, esp his colleagues at his workplace. and ml is one of his colleagues but ml is not the guy which yj wants me to know. its just that yj has been talking abt me in his workplace and ml wanted to know me.

ok so on one of the day, he gave ml my msn and we chatted online. yj told me that this ml is attached so asked me to know him as friend only.

ok i was fine with that. the first time we chatted, we clicked quite well. during the conversatn, he sent me his photo and asked to see mine as well. so i asked him to go friendster see. well, after awhile, he went off. actually at that moment, i sort of sensed something. well, i got to admit that i am not photogenic and i am not an absolute beauty. i sensed that perhaps after seeing my photo, then know that i am not that pretty and so ended the conversatn with me. well of cos, i dun deny that maybe he really got something on and gtg.

after the dinner and ktv, me and yj went home ourselves as this ml lives in bedok. but we two were walking and chatting.

so the truth was, ml did tell yj that i wasn't that pretty as yj makes me out to be (well, yj tends to exaggerate things at times). so it was indeed because of my looks that he stopped chatting with me. but after meeting me, ml told yj that my tiao jian not bad.

well moral of the story is that, we really cannot judge a person by his looks. this ml is such a decent looking matured guy that you would never expect him to go for looks and go for knowing other girls when he is attached.

i am abit turned off by him lor.

guys are so jerky. when u think he is least expected to go astray, he is actually that kind who WOULD go astray and betray you.

life is full of twists and turns.