好痛。。女人病。

feeling stressed up these days. over myself, parents, my sister, my nephew, my work and everything else.

all things just happen at the same time.. BOMB!

i really dun like stress.. it affects everything. pain everywhere. and worst thing is, i lose my appetite. sigh.

finally decided to spend some money to buy something i hoped that will make me happy.. my DS!

raining now. i hope 雨过天晴。。things will be back to normal soon.

my promise to you.
in between the bright sun and the tiny buildings, there is a line of orange light and this is called the sunset clouds. always beautiful.



你为了你对我说的一句话 和 我说的一句话，而失眠。。
好 guilty ，好感动，同时好乱。。

Ah boy calls him... PEANUT KOR KOR!!!

was chatting with kh and lc today.

kh say, i need a guy who treats me very good and dote on me very much. cos i am the sort that will repay one's kindness to me. and also, 我心很软。。

actually after working with kh for so long, i thought i know him well. but today, i realised that he knows me quite well too. hahaha.. he's one of those who will help me in my work, and treats me as a friend. he always say, 把你当朋友才这样帮你啊。。

raining today. i took these in the office today.
can You see the reflections of the lights in the pictures?? Hahahaa...

sunday. went out early, about 12 plus.

together with aunt justina's family. we went toa payoh for lunch and to ikea at tampines.

guess what? met my cousin, 二姐, with her husband and son, issac! they saw my dad's colourful van and so she called me.. and then we continued our shopping.

aunt justina bought a bookshelf and shoe rack. and we bought the same shoe rack and the curtains! so tiring after the walk through ikea.. and we headed to chai chee, my cousin's house.

actually our intention was to go to the food fair at expo (an annual event and we go there every year it is held).. but all of us were tired and so, we decided to tabao the various good food at bedok and eat at my cousin's house.

food food and more food!! yummy!
all the good food from the various long-queue stalls.. of cos, we split our ways with my dad being the driver.

its been a long day... but i am happy.. :-)

my leg pain again. this time, its the part above the knee, the thighs.

went to my chinese doctor. he say 我拉到 somethings probably nerves or dunno..，thats why pain. so he did some 推拿.

know why i like going to him? cos he's that kind of doctor who will tell U that yours is a small problem, no need to worry, very assuring doctor.

some doctors will scare U, say that it might be something serious and makes U worry. And sometimes its because of such psychological stress, the pain or illness gets worse and wont go away..

thats what I think lah.. maybe some ppl dun agree with Me.. Anyway..

back to office. went to bugis to pray during lunch.

i asked a question. the interpretation i got was good.
good.. good.. good...

mood so-so.. maybe pms bah. i feel down suddenly.

tue and wed. on course for these two days, with elmo.

understanding creative accounting. not bad the course, the trainer was good also. he likes interaction among us. i hate interaction.

had dinner at toa payoh crystal jade. ah boy really likes barney. he refuse to change out of his barney t-shirt. and there was a pasar malam at toa payoh. and so, we walked and bought barney t-shirts for him.

he was very naughty. wanted to change into the new barney t-shirts. but it had to be washed first. damn stuborn. kept crying.

fed up. scolded him. cried cried and cried. now.. think he's sleeping anytime.

sigh.. babies. sometimes not that fun afterall. gets on my nerves when he gets too naughty.

i sms boon. "when can U pay me back?"

sounds fierce right? he replied me, says he's saving up and can pay me back abit by the 12th. oh well.

we did chat for awhile. i told him, long time nv hear from him and i tot he.. He say he will return me but he's busy with work and dating recently..

oh.. so he got a gf liao.. hahah Heard she's helping her brother sell ice cream at sin ming road.. Hmm..

monday. vesak day. public holiday.

went to temple at pandan gardens to pray early in the morning. wah, super crowded. super sunny. ate vegetarian at the temple thereafter.

yp jio for mj. and so.. we had mj at ic's house, with his wife. we played the entire afternoon. me and yp wanted to go ktv thereafter but we decided to go home for dinner in the end.

that's my holiday.

sunday. brought ah boy to chevrons to swim, or rather to soak in water.

from 1pm to 4pm. but it was good and refreshing. Hahaha! and i think he loves it. Din want to go home.. Hahaha..

Abit tanned now.. BUt its nice! LOve it..

Whether one believes in a religion or not, there is no one who does not appreciate kindness and compassion. But it is not easy to be kind. Sometimes our hearts are filed with anger, jealousy or pride and being kind is the last thing we feel like doing. Or we get so caught up in our work and responsibilities that we find no time to think of others and their needs, no time to be kind and gentle.

saturday. 17 may. its shalley's wedding. me and andrew reached her house at 7am. 2 of her cousins arrived. we discussed the gatecrush games. and the groom arrived at 8am.

gosh. u know what time they played until? played until 8.55 lor. i think its the most dragging gatecrush that i had ever played. lol. the brothers wasnt that onz and the ang bao.. erm.. hahaha.. and so it dragged.

and then the usual.. went to the groom's hse and back to the bride's hse. it was hot and sunny. and so, by the time we reached shalley's hse, i was exhausted. and gauis came to join us.

we made our way to the church thereafter. did some preparations and the guests started to come in.

and then she walked in. played the song "i finally found someone". very touching. i was near to tears. really indeed touching.

the pastor was an indian. a joker. he made us all laugh. he was funny.

then the phototaking. then the buffet. and very soon, everything's over. finally.

tired when i got home. slept abit. then ah boy came back home, opened my door and woke me up.

girl.. wishing u a blissful marriage! all my best wishes! :-)

sunday. wanted to meet dgua on either sat or sun. but i was so afraid that my stomach might act up again so.. i didnt.

my family chaos again. mum wasnt happy that my sister din come back home take care of ah boy on thurs (a public holiday) and friday (my sis did not work on this day)..

and today.. she finally erupted. scold scold scold. throw temper.

my dad. cos he played mj till 5am today. he was trying to get some sleep. got fed up that the house is so noisy that he went out. now i dunno where he is.

i really hate my sister. dunno what is going in her brain. she says she's tired from working. ??!?!@#!@#$@? as if mum is not tired? mother's also old, she's also human, she's working too, she's tired from taking care of ah boy too... !@!#@#$?#$@?#$>

and when she's back, her eyes are glued to the tv. sometimes i feel that it might be better when she's not back. she's in the house, but eyes on tv, not taking care of ah boy, makes us more infuriated when we see her.

and she's stuborn. and she loves to act smart. and she puts the blame on other ppl when things happen.

argh!

i really pity ah boy. he's such a nice boy (at times). but his parents.. sometimes i can only tell him that he must learn to take care of himself. cos when we are out together, i dun see his parents looking after him when he's running around.. gosh, cannot imagine if me and our parents are not ard, i really cannot imagine the scenario.

thats my sunday...
feel so tired at times. e more useless my sister is, e more stress i feel. cannot imagine if one day, i were to leave first, what will happen to my family that i love most? SIGH.

thursday. mayday holiday. at home. i feel nausea again. arghs! thought i recovered yest.. maybe i ate too much fried food yest.

really.. 吃是福. i just hope to recover my appetite.. soon.

wednesday. i met dgua for dinner. he managed to get the medicated cream for my mum and refused to take money from me, so i gave him a treat. actually i owe him lah, for bringing us around when i was in bkk in march, for searching for my medicated cream..

morning. i suddenly thought of an idea. that is to jio the rest for mahjong and have my parents cook for them. home cooked dinner. i think ppl will like it, esp dgua. and so i sms ys in the morning asking him if he's free the next day for mj. yes i know he's studying for exams but i thought he will make a exception for dgua since he's back now. his reply, he said that no mj for him before exams and even said that dgua is not interested for mj. i hate it when he makes assumptions. and so, i told him not to anyhow make assumptions. his reply, he said he already told dgua that he has got no time for mj now. i said u have no time doesnt mean dgua's not interested mah. i just stopped the conversation cos i din want to quarrel with him.

argh. it just made me irritated lor.

anw i met dgua at night. went for dinner. wanted to go watch movie but we missed the 9pm timing. we din watch in the end cos i din want to go home too late.

took bus home. i went to his hse cos i needed to get the cream for him. woo, long time since i had such a long bus journey.
fun. fun.

no car. no cab. no expensive dinner. no stress. just a simple and peaceful dinner and outing.

i feel comfortable with him. i realised that i dun have the same feeling with every guy i go out with. nice guy. he's a talkative guy actually. he shares the same thinking as me in relation to the mass resignation at ys's company.

well, e minimum a person shld have is at least to be able to differentiate between right and wrong. ys, his defending of his colleagues means that he thinks their behaviour is nothing wrong and i think thats serious. anw, i hope he will soon learn.