questions. questions. alot of questions in my mind.

do u hate me for messing up ur life, ur thoughts?
will it be a passing cloud?
i still owe you something.

find myself so mean. hurt my good friend. feel so guilty. cant act nothing has happened.

but i did not lie to you.


she said. do not have expectations before you start. and that one's likes do not lasts.


when i cant sleep at night at times, i wonder.. what exactly happens when one die? suddenly fear overcome me. i feel very afraid. afraid of losing everything i have now.

possessive-attachment.
to overcome possessive-attachment, understand that impermanence exists. everything changes, nothing lasts. one day, death will separate us from the people we love. but we can love people without being attached to them by living with the awareness of the inevitable separation. we can appreciate and love for them now and at the same time be ready to say goodbye to them when the time comes.