i actually forgot jawpin's wedding date... i actually forgot! im so guilty.. and e date falls on the week that i am going BKK in april... OMG.. i feel so bad. so guilty. feels like calling the airline to change my travel dates.. but then, if i change the dates, its non holidays for him... arghh...

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i have told myself.. to only wait until 10pm.
but then.......

i said 11pm.. then 11.30pm.

he's still not back yet.