im back from taiwan. it started with tired and lots of missing him, but ended up with a super low mood.

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what he said to me on friday still lingers in my mind. i believed that he loved me and thats why we are together, until friday he said he dunno what he felt for me is love or not. i have 2 interpretations to that. either he meant that he did so much things and yet i still doubt his love OR he really meant that he dun feel love for me.

he said he felt sad cos i cant feel his feelings for me. and whether he loves me, is what i think, and not what he say.

is the ball really in my court now? is it really what i think that matters? i thought it should be the other way round, he confirming his love for me with himself and then assuring me of his love for me. isn't that the way?


am i the one having high expectations? or is he the one having high expectations? expecting me to know he loves me, expecting me not to doubt him no matter what he does, no matter what happens.

i dunno. i feel tired.

and then for today.. there isn't any sms from him, no reply from him despite me sending him 1 sms in the morning. he asked me to judge from his actions......

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i am at home. and i am feeling stressed again. being at home is so stressful.....
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