I am alone at bugis.. Intending to buy toys for boy, hoping that making him happy can cheer me up. He's the only one, sticking to me wherever i go. And saying ah yi when he's asked who he like most...

Very little things make me happy easily.. At the same time, im easily upset by little things too.

It was a bad morning today.

And its been a bad week.

I am afraid that i may end up like my mum..

I should hate quarrels.. Right?

Its a lonely and boring weekend..

They haven tried the otah i brought over.. Its been a week.
She dun like me?

Waste of my effort.. I am unhappy. Love is not jus between the both of us. It includes his whole big family, every single one of them.

I am tired...

Ohh.. April is ending... May is coming.. May is empty again... :(

Nothing to look forward to.. Except for that he finishes his exams and that he comes back.... Hopefully.

Dun really dare to think and expect tooooo much....

My class's not starting... And yoga is off for at least 2 weeks... Hmm i'll b lonely...

But.... I got massage to look forward to this week... Ohh yeah!

im back from bangkok...

i enjoyed myself.. we went cha am. stayed in holiday inn. it was a few days of sun, sea, clouds and yummy food!

nice beach. nice surroundings. "nice" weather.

this feeling of anxiously meeting him.. and enjoying myself.. and leaving him again... is sometimes quite torturing.

i am going bangkok tmr!
yeah! finally.. long awaited!

wish me luck! wish me bon voyage!

Super pissed off with myself. I couldnt sleep last night. Jus cos he reached home late. Jus cos he din call me for the entire day except late at night when he's finally alone.

Why is it that i cant sleep when i dun hear from him? I hate this feeling. I hate to be reliant on ppl. I hate being the me now.

I hate to be reliant.... I'm scared of the feeling of losing e reliance.

ic called me today. asked me when i was going to bkk. and if i am still going.

well, tdy declared state of emergency. immigration advises to register if going. dbs also advise to register if going. oh well. ic called me. he was concerned abt me! hahaha.. thanks for calling. feel so touched suddenly.

after talking to him in the morning.. i kept thinking what was the B and Q he was talking abt.
kept thinking.. until acupuncture. laid down on the bed. kept thinking. and suddenly! i realised what was B and Q. and then... i found myself so silly.....

Im happy today.. Cos we got telepathy!
I called him but he din pick up my call.. Shortly after he called back... Hmm as if he could sense i called him..
:)

He went cut hair today.. Hahaha but he was laughed by his dad, saying tat he went cut hair cos his gf is going over soon... Lol

And yes im going over soon... Yes im happy.. But sad at the same time.. When e day comes, it also means its gonna end soon..
:(