I finished a bar of chocolates.. Running the risk of having a bad cough, sore throat and losing my voice... But then I couldnt care more.... I desperately need to be happy... Desperately need place only for myself to be in.. Alone.
Suddenly I miss all the places that we went to.. The food, the roadside stalls, the shopping centres, the cinemas, the first class cinemas... And every little thing we have done..
I really miss being over there. But do I have a chance? Would I have a chance to be there? Provided I hang in there..
Just when I decided to hang on, decided that he is the one, somemore worth waiting for, he gives me a feeling that he is not really concerned abt me.
He is nice to me cos I've been nice to him. He needs a companion, needs someone to pat him on the back to encourage him, motivate him. And I am conveniently by his side.
These days, he've been busy, i've sick and down. Other than the few days whilst I was busy and I din answer his calls and I din call back.. Cos I wAs upset at the fact that he was working late.. Be it he working late or he working with his group members.. I was just unhappy.
Other than the few days... He din call me. Also din email me. He knew I was sick. Even knew I was busy covering Jes. Knew that I had the monthly pain. Knew alot but he just din ask abt me. His concern? The progress of his work. His lack of sleep. Fed up at the fact that I din pick up his calls. Fed up at the fact that I din call him. But without asking me why I din.... Everything was him and him.
I think I am not important to him at all.. I think he isn't really concerned abt me.. If he truly was, he would have asked abt me. If he couldnt get me on the phone, he could haf left me an emAil. But..
We haf quarrelled over this a million times over and over and over again.. And I am feeling super tired.
Feeling unloved, feeling neglected, feeling umimportant.. Feeling very unhappy.
I dunno how to continue thinking that he loves me alot.
If he is not really concerned abt me, then why still stay together?
Suddenly I miss all the places that we went to.. The food, the roadside stalls, the shopping centres, the cinemas, the first class cinemas... And every little thing we have done..
I really miss being over there. But do I have a chance? Would I have a chance to be there? Provided I hang in there..
Just when I decided to hang on, decided that he is the one, somemore worth waiting for, he gives me a feeling that he is not really concerned abt me.
He is nice to me cos I've been nice to him. He needs a companion, needs someone to pat him on the back to encourage him, motivate him. And I am conveniently by his side.
These days, he've been busy, i've sick and down. Other than the few days whilst I was busy and I din answer his calls and I din call back.. Cos I wAs upset at the fact that he was working late.. Be it he working late or he working with his group members.. I was just unhappy.
Other than the few days... He din call me. Also din email me. He knew I was sick. Even knew I was busy covering Jes. Knew that I had the monthly pain. Knew alot but he just din ask abt me. His concern? The progress of his work. His lack of sleep. Fed up at the fact that I din pick up his calls. Fed up at the fact that I din call him. But without asking me why I din.... Everything was him and him.
I think I am not important to him at all.. I think he isn't really concerned abt me.. If he truly was, he would have asked abt me. If he couldnt get me on the phone, he could haf left me an emAil. But..
We haf quarrelled over this a million times over and over and over again.. And I am feeling super tired.
Feeling unloved, feeling neglected, feeling umimportant.. Feeling very unhappy.
I dunno how to continue thinking that he loves me alot.
If he is not really concerned abt me, then why still stay together?
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