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Yeay!!!!

Yipee.... My last day of work for the year finally ended....
Hooray!!! Though it was getting abit hectic towards the end, but still it all ended at 8pm.... Hahaha managed to brief all outstanding stuff.. And phew.... I can have a break!!!!

And yes, I'm flying tmr.... Holidays, break, fun, hotels, food, shopping... Here I come!!!

Hope I will have Fun...!!!

Fire Drill 17 Dec 2010

Today is our fire drill... All my 8 years here, I have never heard the fire alarm ring and walk down the stairs...
But today.... Today.... I did it all...

OMG... The alarm bell rang.... And we were all stuck in the office.... None of us had gone out.... We were planning to go off at 3....
And so, we walked down 42 floors... And its my first time doing it.....
Good exercise anyway....

Feel Great satisfaction after reaching 1st floor..... Lol...

Happy Birthday To HIM!

Happy Birthday To Him.... May he be happy and healthy always and that he succeed in everything he does.....

Although I do not know what will happen to us in future or how tough it will become.... But these are not the things I want to think now...
Being happy now is important.... And I am happy when with him....

Hope we will enjoy our holidAys together..

Went to the salon to cut hair... Not the usual salon I always go.. But to a new salon... I just needed a hair trim....

Seriously speaking, I really dont like to go to salon.... Cos they, upon seeing my hair, would try to sell their scalp treatments, hairloss shampoos and blah.... Really tired of hearing all that....

Sigh... And feeling so demoralised now... I was tempted... In fact always tempted... But its always expensive and always a series of treatments... Not knowing if it will work out....

I have been monitoring my own condition really closely... And controlling my food intake... But sometimes really dunno what I can do....
Well... Maybe one day... The worse scenario may just happen....

Often wondered... Why there are some people full of hair... While some others are like myself.... Hmm.... Haiz.....

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I need to stop all my chocolates intake....

My temper's been very weird recently... Short tempered... Easily irritated and frustrated...
Throwing temper at everyone... Kemp, my parents.. Including him too....
I feel it.. But just very difficult to control at that moment.. But realised it thereafter... And wondered why I am so short tempered....

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Went for facial today... The lady said I had a few spots on my face... Not pimples yet... But formed due to slight heatiness in the body... If I do not apply anything on it, it may form into pimple....

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Heaty... Chocolates? Thats why heaty and short tempered? ......
Hmm.....

Went shalley's house today.. Tim's birthday is on 19 Dec... She had organised a birthday celebration for Tim on 18 Dec but I was flying on that day... And she brought forward our gathering to today... But Andrew and Gaius couldnt make it... And so only me and Jawpin n Janice...

Tim was hyperactive.... Kept screaming and fidgeting even if someone was carrying him.... Super active boy.... And he just wont stop.... Not a second..... I was getting irritated with all the fidgeting and screaming.... He wont stop when he's in the car, wont stop when we are already out shopping, wont even stop when he's being carried..... Arghh..... I couldnt stand it......

Although we went to the new shopping centre, Nex at Serangoon.... Although there were alot of new things to see.... But with the boy.... OMG.....

I just wanted to go home..... Though I could get rid of kids when I go out.... But today had to help take care of another kid..... Abit regretted going to her house and see her kid.... Guess I will only meet her alone outside..... Never with her kid again.... Maybe when Tim is older......

Tired of taking care of kids.... Probably I wont want to have kids in future.... The taking care, the hormones changing, the figure and face going haywire.... Spare me......

I bought something yummy for him... I know he will like it....
Yummy!

Taxi Ride

Me: Uncle, KK Hospital..
Taxi Uncle: Ok.... Are you in a hurry?
Me: Err.... Not really....
Taxi Uncle: Ok then.... Then I dun take the expressway... I go the other way then....

And so.... He took a route to KK which I have never taken before throughout all my taxi rides to KK from my office.... It was definitely longer and more expensive.... Usually costs me abt 6 bucks... But today? $8.60... Damn....

Did my face write a "Bully me, please"? ........ Irritated.... Feel like passing him only 6 bucks when I am abt to alight... Arghhh....

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KK pharmacy told me they had only 1 box of optium strips left..... KAOZ! All the way for 1 box? And they could still tell me I couldnt get 3 mths supply... Could only give me 1 month supply and they need to check with the social worker and blah......
Arghhh..... Waste my time.... In the end social worker agreed with giving me 3 mths but they had only 1 box... Screamed at them, asked them to confirm when the stock will come in, that I am not available during the last 2 weeks of Dec, and that the memo will expire end Dec...

....... So many problems......

In the end they checked and got 5 boxes transferred from elsewhere.... Gave me 6 boxes.... I had to wait for the transfer.... And it was 1.40pm by the time I finished.... Too late to wait for the shuttle bus....

Cab again.... Spend like 20 bucks for a trip to KK..... For 6 boxes of optium strips..... With my easily irritated temper.....

Haiz......

I should stop checking my email....

In any case, I'm sorry for complaining yesterday.

My headache's bugging me for the whole day... Refuses to go away...

He... Did it again.
Knowingly....

I know. I am not important at all. And not worth it.

I started to pack a little in the afternoon and then I stopped. Started to put everything back again.....
I may not be able to enjoy my leave afterall.... I may have to stay home and face all the nonsense.....

I changed my wallpaper several times these 2 weeks...

I am now in a bo chap mode... If they want to spoil kemp, let them be. I wont say a thing, will not scold them, will not scold kemp. If they are sick and refuses to see doctor, let them be too. If that woman wants to be like that, let her be. I wont interfere.. I will not raise my voice at them again. I wont let my blood pressure rise again because of them... I will close both my eyes....

And probably the best person to love me is myself...

That woman is simply too selfish..... They brought kemp out.... I sms her, asked her to bring kemp back to their home for his afternoon nap as Dad and Mum needed their rest.....

But then... She brought him back at 3.30pm..... DAMN!!!!!

And she even told Mum that she's going home to sleep..... Shitty woman!!!!

I really hate her to the core!!!
She needs rest? Then how about the 2 elderly who are sick? Who looks after kemp 24/7? I only asked her for that few hours of break.....
Damn it! Fuck her..

I finished half the box of chocolates... Exceeded the daily limit that I set for myself.... Haiz...

I wanted to go out myself... Go out somewhere.... But then lazy to get out.... And its 3pm plus now... Too late to go out....

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Again....

Another 13 days to go....
But we aren't on talking terms now... Sian... Should I be happy looking forward to my long-awaited break or sad...?

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Weird temper..

Been feeling weird recently.. Short tempered... Getting frustrated easily...
I dunno why...

Mum's coughing.. And I am worried. But she refuses to see doctor. Only managed to force her to see doc yesterday but she refuses to let me in the doc's room with her... And she just got a bottle of cough syrup, telling the doc she only coughs at night.. But actually she coughs throughout the day!!.... Dunno what she's trying to do...

Kemp's getting on my nerves too.. Too naughty, too greedy.. I dunno how to teach or discipline him anymore.. Dunno how to control his diet..

All things seem to get out of control.. I feel like giving up... Very tired...

He's not spared from my unreasonable temper too... But he just dun understand.. Or rather he just cannot put up with it..
Ok... Fine... Anyway nobody's born to be unreasonable and nobody's born to tolerate others' nonsense too...

怎样维护异地恋‏

1.给你们的关系定下一些原则和规定

在一份对异地关系的研究中，格雷格*居德纳博士发现70%的异地夫妻没有设定原则，或者处理变化，于是在半年内分道扬镳了。这就意味着双方设定些指导你们异地关系的原则是及其重要的。这包括双方同意不能跟其他人约会，每天都交流，至少两三个月要见一面。


2.每天都交流交流

成功的异地关系部分是因为能够仿照正常关系的模式。其中之一就是每天的交流。互联网的出现对于处于异地关系的人们简直是天赐之物。不仅是你们可以免费地通过电子邮件和即时通讯工具沟通，而且还可以通过免费的Skype服务互相聊天。这就免了每个月500美金的电话费了。


3.把你的感情表达出来

通过电子邮件，即时通讯工具，电话来表达你的情感对于你们的关系的发展和稳定是非常重要的。其中一个可以增进你们的关系的稳定的方式是安慰她/他你会负责的，让对方放心。当你表达出你的感情的时候，你就是对方知道你在付出，你会维护好你们的关系。


4.千里寄相思

时不时地给出于异地的伴侣准备一些东西寄过去，表达你的挂念。下面列了些东西仅供参考（自己规划，当然不是让你一次都寄出去）

书，电话卡，好心思巧克力，音乐，视频留言，智力测验，糖果，真玫瑰，明信片，毛绒玩具，假玫瑰，度假用的东西，装在瓶子里的留言，巧克力玫瑰，压花，你的照片，雕刻的玫瑰，礼品卡，珠宝，心灵的“钥匙”，泡沫浴，电影票，个性化的诗文。

礼物越个性化，对方收到的时候作用越大。比如，发些你的照片，在上面做个表达“我爱你的”（当然你可以写个名字在上面，别留个空白的）。当你寄书的时候，记得要选对方有激情看的，再写个纸条夹在里面，每次都这么做。寄音乐的时候，也写点有关的东西，让她/他知道你在想她/他.去M&M网站订购个性化的牛奶巧克力糖果。智力测验也可以订制。给你的伴侣所在地的SPA（温泉浴）打电话办个卡给她/他寄过去！
越是个性化和有想象力，你的伴侣就对你的体贴印象越深刻。


5.两地同时过

即使你和另一半离几个小时远，也可以一起体验“约会夜”。比如在两地同时去看大片。计划好同时去看电影，完了给对方打电话讨论下。知道对方在同一时间和你做同一件事情是很好玩的。尽管分处两地，你们也可以“一起”分享一段时间。


6.别想当然

对彼此间的感情要确信不疑。不要想当然人家知道你在想什么——要跟她/分享。不管是好是坏，对你们的感情不能含糊。想当然会断送异地关系，而明确的交流会使异地关系走向成功。让另一个人知道你的抱负，恐惧，情绪和渴望。这有助于对方跟你分享更深入的东西，当你们一起努力掌握了沟通能力后。


7.信赖彼此

自尊心不强以及缺乏信任会破坏美好的关系。举个例子，我知道一个女的遇见一个不错的男的，是在她花了3年时间从前一段感情中“恢复”过来后遇到的第一个男人。不幸的是，她仍然背着上一次失败了的感情的包袱。她把这个好男人归入到坏男人的行列，多疑，没有安全感，最终失去了他。
　　
别把现在的对象和陈年往事纠缠到一块去。 给现在的人一个机会。我的哲学是，我完全相信你，直到你不值当相信为止。如果深处异地还不相信对方，那么你就是自己破坏自己的感情。


8.规划定期见面

经常见面对于异地关系的成功是非常重要的。向第一条一样，定个准则，多久见一次，什么时候见。订好了日子后要确保那天不受干扰。当你取消见面的时候（“朋友们邀请我去海边玩儿”或者“我忘了那周要期末考试了”），你就是在给对方说这段感情对你来说不算什么。为了见她/他，你应该取消所有安排。如果你让其他事情干扰了见面，那么可能该重新考虑为什么要在一起了。


9.分享激情

如果能够水乳交融，你会更了解你的伴侣的，特别是深处异地。之后，你就会更清楚对方的好恶，还有激情。搞清楚她/他对什么比较有激情，然后你可以加入。比方说对方喜欢网球，你却从未打过。那就从网球课开始吧，然后跟人家交流交流。想想你们俩对什么都有激情，然后一起分享，是会大大增强你们的关系。


10.制造惊喜！

你会经常听别人说，“我喜欢惊喜”。惊喜很好玩，因为它来得突然，而且表现了制造惊喜之人的体贴和好玩。想想看有什么你可以给人家制造惊喜的。但是别让人觉得早该有了，那么他们就会盼着惊喜了。




下面有些想法仅供参考：

*制作一个录像带，录下你“人生中最重大的事件”，向她/他炫耀一下


*一套礼物，当你们见面后人家要走的时候给她/他。礼物的数量和你们下次要见面的星期数对应。比如，你们下次隔8周见面，就送八个，每个都编上号。每个星期一的早上叫她/他打开其中的一个。这会增强对方的期待，也会觉得你越发的贴心。


如果你肯花时间和精力，异地也可以修成正果。正如菲尔博士所言，“如果真爱一个人，你会翻山越岭，上天入地斩蛟龙……”

I was happy yesterday... Had nasi lemak for lunch and went to queue for free starbucks coffee at 5pm... It was a charity drive and I donated.. Ordered Hot Chocolate... Woo super nice... Was super happy when I had it and finished it....

But my happiness din lasts.... I had diarrhoea at 10pm plus.... Sharks... Dunno is the hot chocolate or the nasi lemak.... Sigh...

And today even worst.... Bad hair day... All because of what I ate yesterday.... Nasi lemak too oily? Or drank the forbidden stuff, hot chocolate with low fat milk.... Maybe shld have asked them to put soy milk instead.... Anw damage done... Hope it ends soon......

May have to bid farewell forever to hot chocolate....... =(

I bought a pair of flats in KL... And now, it has a new name and that is 'Rainy Flats'...
It rains everytime I wear it... Lol... I wore it on Tue and it rained heavily... I washed it, hang up to dry... It was dried today and I wore it again and now its raining again.....

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I realised my mood is getting abit weird these days... Easily frustrated.. Easily angered... Something's wrong.... But dunno what....
Weird....