Its really just plain BAD luck...

Always feel lonely and alone when I need help...
He is always busy and packed when I need help...
I always dont feel his presence when I need help and feels like crying...
And so I get frustrated and he gets defensive... And then we'll quarrel.. Its a vicious cycle..

I really wonder why...

Retail therapy.. Chocolates.. My favourite food... To get me over difficult times.... I can only rely on these.

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Really feels like crying these days...
Work's busy.. Mum's health making me worried and sleepless.. Worried about kemp's health and learning ability..
Somehow I dont look forward to the future.... Im worried and scared of the future...
But nobody really understands... Nobody really does.