Excuses and excuses... Reasons and more reasons.

It is a bad Monday.. Kemp and Dad woke up at 5am plus cos Kemp is sick.. Stomachache and vomitting.. I am late for work.. Afraid that Dad may not have enough sleep.. Mum's leg aching... I wonder if its the ice cream on Friday or yest too much standing... Feels like taking the day off but I will be away for the rest of the work.. Feels the need to go back and brief on my work...

I am feeling numb...
完全没心情出国。。
There is only worries in my mind now.... And disgust.

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I had yearning in my heart in the past... Yearned so much that I could do anything to get someone to help take care of me and my family..
Now things are different.. Circumstances and surroundings have forced me to be like this... To be alone and independent.