A pretty but bad day...

I put on makeup to work today.. Long time since I put on makeup.
I should make myself pretty in order to make myself happy.. True enough, having some blusher on one's cheek does make one looks prettier and happier...

Busy day too.

I will be involved in this year's teambuilding event. I volunteered. I needed the extra day off...
And it might be an overseas trip.. And the place might be the place that will make both of us happy.. BUT BUT not confirmed yet... Everything's still under discussion and planning.. We'll see...

He fell sick.. Still had to work.. I was worried.. Wanted him to go home right away.. However traffic jam.. He was stuck on the road.. I called him after yoga class.. Simply wanted to accompany him home.. Worried he will fall asleep and can't concentrate on driving...

But I had to raise the topic.. Something that both of us are upset about... Told him my standpoint.. Till now I still don't know if he understands... To me, the most important thing is he understands me and stand by me. I don't care if other people don't understand and don't know me well.
As long as he understands me and stand by me, whatever I do will be worth it....

I have said whatever I want to say during this few days.. And I feel much better after letting out whats in my heart.. Don't know how he feels about it.. Maybe he would be upset or whatever... But seriously, love and dating is about the both of us only. Our future is gonna be the both of us only.. Doesn't include anybody else. I only need to make him happy.. I don't have to make everybody happy..

Most worrying thing of the day... Mum fell sick again. She just got better and she fell sick again... Coughing till 喘... I am worried about her... Worries about dad too.. He has to take care of Kemp and worry about mum... I feel useless of all... I can't take leave to stay home to help... And I can't come home during lunch to help abit...
Haiz... Feeling useless...