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His mum? Sleepless because she is addicted to the games in iphone.... We? Sleepless because her son is down with cough!!!!

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Kemp is coughing....

Kemp is sick again... Keeps coughing.
Wanted him to sleep with me because his coughing will keep dad awake... But Dad refuse. If I had lack of sleep it is still fine as I work in office. But Dad? He needs to drive.... I am worried but I cannot do anything but to remain worried for both...

His mum? Went home. My mum? Sleeps like a log....

I want to be the one sick instead of him... God, please help.

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I just learned how to do a screenshot....

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What caused it?

We did not speak each other's love language.

Dinner with Kemp

With the girls..

TGIF.
Went Sukiya at Marina Square for Shabu shabu.. It was steambuffet buffet. With lots of beef and stuff. Not too bad. And shabu shabu has to be eaten with raw egg beaten. I didn't try it though. And there was ice cream for dessert with chocolate toppings.

It was shopping thereafter. Saw a few dresses I liked. But it was priced at $79.. Too expensive I guess.

Then it was having drinks at Marina Mandarin. Drinks plus chatting plus listening to music and singing. Quite relaxing.


Did I shut myself from them in the recent years? I dunno.
Maybe bah.
But it was good to have a talk with them once in a while. It does feels good.

I feel unloved, unprotected. Alone.
Nothing to feel happy about.

How about me? I am always alone. If I had seeked attention, would I get it?
Just another spare tyre.

Bullied

Nobody is siding with me. Nobody understands. Not even him.

He is siCk.. I really want to talk.... But he feels sleepy after the medicine.
Haiz....
The feeling of loneliness.

My good boy....

Kemp called me just now... Told me he just vaccumed the floor.. Lol.

Just sent him off. I cried again. I am alone again.

Its the end of Saturday... :(

3 more days.. 2 more nights.

Last week's Friday was a happy one.. He arrived in Singapore and we went ABC market for dinner.
Kemp likes his company. Dad laughed more when he is around because Kemp is happy. Mum had one more person to nag and complain to.

This week's Friday.. Wasn't a great one. We had spent days slacking at home doing nothing. He had fall sick. Down with diarrhoea. Couldn't and didn't have the appetite for food. Didn't go anywhere. Simply stayed at home. And today is Friday already.

Saturday. Sunday. And Monday. He will be back to his home again.

I feel like talking. He is now playing with Ipad. I remembered the time we were at BKK airport. I was leaving soon and he played with my camera. As if he didn't want to cherish our last moments together. And now I have the same feeling again.

Maybe he is looking forward to going back home.

Lucky

My leave cover told me today that the transaction can be back valued till 31 May and because of that, the OD interest would be overriden at month end.

Wooo... Lucky. No need to get waivers for the OD interest..
But I am still skeptical... Would it really be overriden at month end? Will everything really be alright?
I pray hard... Very hard.
Afterall, this arose because of me.....

Nightmare

I had a nightmare last night.... Scary... Woke me up in the middle of the night.
Sigh... I knew I was afraid. But never knew I could be so scared until like this..

Sigh....

Hiding

I did something wrong for my leave cover when she was away...
Mistakes that caused customer to incur OD interest.... I feel so guilty. It shouldn't have went wrong. Did I assume people got my idea without communicating clearly? Haiz.... Wrong done. Now they are rectifying... Don't know how it can be rectified? Does back-valuing the transaction helps? No... I do not think so... OD interest is still there. We have to get waiver for it.

I feel that being an experienced one, I should not have made the mistake.
Its not to be forgiven.

Haiz. Disappointed with myself.

So tired.... =(

I am so tired... From the work in the office.. From the non-stop nagging and nonsense at home.. From worrying abOut Kemp... From worrying abOut my parents' health and their forgetfulness...

And... I still have to worry about him.

Non-stop. Never ending.
Enough of all these.
I only have little energy to cope with a few things.. I am not super energetic, not superwoman.

Those things are enough for me.

Still want me to get married and have kids? ...... Don't think I have any energy left for that....

生在福中，不知福。

Did her husband not bring money home? Did her husband not do household chores? Did her husband have woman outside? Did she need to cook everyday? Did she don't have enough food to eat? Does she need to go outside to slog and earn a living? Is she lonely? Is there nobody in her family? Does she not have people to accompany her?

I wonder whats there to complain about... Whats more to expect of life?
I don't understand... Whats there to complain about?

Perhaps she thinks she does alot? And nobody appreciates?
But it is a pain to listen to complains... Almost everyday.
Torturing..