Change

Last night, I had diarrhoea twice and broke out in cold sweat once. Wanted to take MC today but I overslept till 7 plus couldn't sleep anymore and so woke up to prepare for work..

The past me would have went ahead with my MC... Why did I not do that? I guess I changed for the better... Did not want to break my no-mc for the year yet...

Although I am sick... Posted here... But nobody is gonna know about it and I will not gain any sympathy...

Posting in my blog is my hobby.. Not a channel to gain sympathy... I am sure of it now.

And I suddenly feel so upset... And feel that my heart feels dead.