I am tired. Seriously tired. Tired of being worried about my family members. Tired of being scared. Tired of tightening my belts to make no family happy and to fulfill obligations. Tired of the stress and guilt. Tired of explaining as if talking to a kid.. Tired.... Really tired....

I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.... I wish I don't have to face him face everything.....

Life is so meaningless....