Just scolded Kemp. He wanted to buy bey blade. I found an online store. I thought it was cheap, so asked him to look through the bey blades to see if he had any that he wanted to buy.. In the end, I found the bey blades to be pretty expensive (including the airmail charges) and that it was in USD. So I told him it was too expensive.. He was pretty upset thereafter. And he cried but quietly. I flared at him cos I really hated him crying over small things like that. And then I kept scolding. Which kid has got a new toy almost every week? Damn.. I scolded and then said that he can forget about going out during the weekends... He said sorry. But I was still angry. I could not give in. It meant breaking my words and he would not be taught a lesson... Sigh... Dont really know what to do now.. To give in or not. Yes, I pamper him, dote on him very much. I didnt want him to feel shortchanged. Didnt want him to feel more unfortunate than other kids. I mean, he is already more unfortunate than other kids.. I dont want him to feel more... Am I wrong? Am I wrong in scolding him or even pampering him? I dont know... I need help... I hope there is someone beside me, to help me teach him, to help teach him, to help explain things to him, to help answer some questions that I dont know how to answer him, to help talk things out with me.. To....do a lot more other things.... If crying can solve things, I also want to cry... cry badly.