I am probably not good at bringing up kids.  Not a patient person nor a gentle one.
I wonder how Kemp thinks of me.  A fierce one?  A reasonable one?  A talk sense one? Or just someone he fears alot....

I get very upset with myself whenever I stops him from eating.  But his readings are haywired... Whenever I think I have got a very good sense, it just goes haywire.  Whenever I have confidence that the readings will be good, it just does not go my way.  I get so disappointed, so upset.

I have put in my best... and am very tired about it.

I keep wanting to solve everyone's problems but realised I dont have the ability.  I know I am not a superwoman.  But seriously I rather I suffer than to see them suffer.  I rather I go hungry.  I rather I am the one coughing so hard.