I just refuse to look at his tuition homework or school homework or whatever..... Refuse to look at him. 

I am tired.  Really tired. 

It makes me look bad when I am the strict one and he has somebody to stick to when he is in the wrong.  Tired of them not understanding me and standing by me. 

Nobody really understand how much I put in this home.  How much efforts.  How much hard work.  How much worrying.  How much how much.... Or how much scarifices..... Nobody really knows.....