Chance.... Opportunity.

I have been in this job for about 13 years.... And still counting.  

All these years, I have been grateful to my boss for giving me chances, trusting me and of course, promoting me.  

This time of the year.  It is appraisal time again.  I write the same stuff everytime, sometimes finding it hard to justify my rank and salary.  

I heard rumour that my Big Boss is stressing my boss to ask us to take on cases (become a RM).  Well, I saw it coming just didnt expect it to be so fast (I guess I just didnt want to face it...).  

And so now, I am in a dilemma again.  

I have always had that option open to me.  All these years, I just dont have the courage to take it.  If the rumour is true, Big Boss is giving us 2 choices, to stay put and our B might get cut.  To move up and salary and B will increase.... 

Its kind of forced.  But then again, I am not sure how much of it is true.  My boss haven talk to me. And most importantly, I am at the crossroads again.  

This time, I have an inclination to move up but all my fears are pulling me back... But then again, I am in need of money and my intention is to get my Dad to retire early and I need money to do that.... 

Duh... Dunno what to do....