It will be Fine

 

I cannot do it within 1-2 minutes.... 

I need maybe 2-3 days...... 

Just when I was.....

Just when I was feeling terrible.... I saw this, especially the last sentence.  I always knew it... But somehow it was lost. 

 

胆小。逃避。

胆小的我。 逃避的我。 这就是我。

人不像人。 鬼不像鬼。 

单身不像单身。  结婚不像结婚。 

该自由的我，却被邦的紧紧的。 

时间上，金钱上。

我想要的简单快乐平静，却没那么简单，快乐，平静。

我好累。。好想逃避。  

我想离开。。。。

五月天 - 人生无限公司

我来了！

今年我买了两天的票！终于做到了！

Mum's Follow Up at NTFGH

 

My Journey

Starting this journey at this age.. It was not something I wanted and expected. 

It was almost a push factor for me.  Someone beside me wanted to do it and so I was also pushed to it.  

Although I was later than YP, I finally started now.  

It was torturing at first.  It was pain, tight and I couldnt understand why I wanted to put myself through this at this age. 

And yes, I am totally in my comfort zone. Wouldnt move if I had a choice. 

I almost gave up during the first day.  I really wanted to relieve myself of the pain fast and quick and I couldnt hold on for another day. 

After talking to YP last night, I felt better.  She went through the pain.  I thought it was a case of my more complicated case.  But maybe not. 

After seeing Louise this morning, I felt better.  She said she can help me relieve the muscles so that it wont be so painful.  

I have to hold on and not give up.  Like my case now, I dont have a choice.  I dont have a choice of going back to what it was already. 

Sigh

It feels painful.... Really painful.  

I put on then I tried to take out cos I felt hungry.... Its really painful. 

Sighhh... 

Finally. Again.

 

I got my first 5 sets of aligners yesterday. And I tried to put on just now.  Yes, I succeeded in putting on. 

My first set.  Its actually quite tight. I hope it feels better tomorrow morning.... 

Cannot get to sleep

After nearly 4 hours from the numbing injection just now, my upper lips still feels numb.  

Worse thing is.... I cannot get to sleep. 

Zzzzzz.... I am tired... Feeling hungry after taking Panadol.... And I cannot get to sleep...... Sigh

Finally.

Finally.  I took the step.  

Extracted my 4 tooth. 

Now my whole mouth is numb.  Cannot close my lips properly.  

Sudden Lousy Mood

Lousy mood.  It feels irritated suddenly.  It feels abit sad... for not having someone reliable to share its fears with. 

没得去 Kupkup, 有他在，也不错！

 

 

Mothers

My mum.  Fell down yesterday.  Brought her to have a X-ray taken.  Lucky no fracture no bones broken.  

But limping real hard.  And walking is difficult.  Seeing her like that.  My heart aches.  

My parents are really old liao.  Not as before.  I am feeling the heavy burden...  

Tired sometimes but not giving up.  If I give up, then who else to care for them.  

To cover my mum's chores makes me realise how much she has been doing at home.  I always felt she was free at home but not until when I had to cover her chores.  So tiring! 

世上只有妈妈好。 

短短的

短短的假期。。没了。

妈妈跌倒了。

短短的

短短的假期。 短短的一天放假。

我还是很期待。。我需要休息。

好累喔。