My deep sleep exceeds 20%!  Its like once in a blueeeee moon.  Hope this number can continue crawling up, slowly and steadily…. 

This week feels long, even with a PH at the starting of the week.  

2nd dose done on 22 Jul 2021.  Another 2 weeks before The effect takes place.  

Work piling but haven really got the mood to clear work.  Sigh, feels tired and sian of everything. 

Feeling really down.  PMS?  Not sure….. 

Tired

Feels tired even before the vaccine.  

Feels tired about worrying about everything and anything.  

Feel worried about the current situation.  Feel worried about my Dad going out to buy groceries etc. Feel worried about him getting bored at home (no going out for his breakfast and mahjong etc). 

Sigh.  Everything and anything.  

My own body isnt making things easy for me either.  Pain and feeling different in different parts of my body every other day. 

Sigh. 

I really didnt want to sound so negative.. But I really needed to vent out…. Somewhere

Packing week

I didnt really take a very accurate “before” photo.  The “before” was much messier.

But the “after” photos are real.  After our hard work within a week.  Need and tidy, leaving only our phones and monitors.  

Bye my workspace for about 9 years?  This space is right smack at a corner, with a sea and high floor view.  And the sun comes in in the afternoon, so abit of suntanning here and there. 

Joyspace - a new and refreshing idea.  But it also means no sense of belonging.  You dont have a table that has your name and etc.  

But I guess that is the new world, the new norm.  I need to be adaptable to changes - shouldnt be so inflexible and 老古董。

I am a tidy person

I keep my stuff tidy, at home or at office. 

Our workspaces are going to be transformed into joyspaces and hence we are asked to pack our stuff, clear our desks.  Cutting the workspaces, given that we can work from home. 

I went back office on Friday and within a day, I cleared like 70% of my desk.  Felt so proud, given that I have been in the same team for nearly 19 years. 

All thanks to my diligent filing and clearing as and when I am free.  Haha, I really felt proud and even told the girls that.  They din expect that to come from me. 

我是胆小鬼

I may look cool, daring, not nervous or anxious about anything (just as what my colleagues say about me), but in actual fact, I get nervous, anxious very easily.  Just that I dont show it on my face, or maybe I am slow in reacting, 慢三拍。

I get scared easily.  I get scared at negative news.  I get scared when my parents feel unwell.  I get scared when my body is weird.  

I get scared easily but yet I dont share with other people.  Or rather, nobody to share with.  

Somehow in this sense, I feel I am pathetic. 开心，没人分享。 伤心，难过，紧张，也没人分担。

可怜的人。 

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