happy new year! i hope 2007 is a good year for me.. hmm what defines "good"? i hope the people that i care for are happy, healthy and may all things goes smoothly for them.

and yah, i am at home.. alone and lonely.. hahaha.. quite getting used to it already, not going out on days where "i am supposed to be out" haha!

but my stupid sister spoilt my day early in the morning, shouting at mother over a small thing.. FAINTS.. and then father mother sister started shouting blah.. when they quarrel, i always keep quiet because if i erupt, it would be very ugly.. and when they quarrel, its always 对牛弹琴.. and i wonder if either parties know what the other is shouting at.. hmm

and soo my day is spoilt by her.. just do not understand why she is so immature and stuborn, keeps having things go her way.. yes, she is hearing impaired and cannot hear, so why she cannot accept her disability and accept the fact that there are certain things she cannot do?? of course, i wont deny that i have never been in her shoes and so will never understand how she feels.. but then again if she do things more maturely and more steadily, i think father also feels safer leaving ah boy in her hands.. but then sad to say, she's not and thats why we dun feel safe!

what a day i had.. it was already sad for myself that i had nowhere to go and no one to accompany me on new year's eve and this one more thing had to happen.. sigh

what a immature sister i have.. i am really afraid that if one day i were to go first before my parents, i wont be at peace leaving my parents with her lor.. okok, i shouldnt say such things on new year's eve..

time for resolutions! i really want to do volunteer work and do my part for the society.. i think i decided to go help the small kids.. and i shall start by leaving my contact with worldvision stating my intentions to do volunteer work.. yeah!

ah boy's life

he wakes up every morning at about 730, blur-red for few minutes and his grandmum feeds him breakfast, bread with cheese dipped with tea or coffee..

plays with his toys, go around the house while in his walker, cries for his grandmum to carry but his grandmum needs to do her household chores so sometimes she will leave him to cry..

at around 930 plus, grandmum prepares for his bath and yeah ah boy has his bath, plays in the water, plays with the surrounding stuff on the bathroom while in his tub...

he has a short nap at around 10 plus.. wakes up at 12 plus and has his porridge.. but he gets cheeky after a few mouthfuls and moves around, leaving the feeder having to chase him around or carry him properly so that he can finish his porridge..

he naps again at 3 or 4 plus and wakes up at 6 plus.. play again and wait for his grandpa and auntie to come back from work.. he sits in his high chair while his grandparents and auntie eats their dinner.. he LOVES to watch the commercials on the tv and makes alot of noises during our dinner..

he sleeps at 9 plus, sometimes earlier.. and the day ends quietly.

i watch him in deep sleep, thinking, what is in this boy's mind?

life is so simple for him.. but then he better cherish it lar before it gets complicated in the future.. :-)

born to love ~ 为爱而生

yeah that is my favourite band's new album name.. releasing it REAL soon.. so excited about it!!

wanted to buy it online.. but after the postage fees, it adds up to NT849, which is about S$40+.. wahh, expensive right, for such imported album.. after mucH consideration, i still didn't click "submit".. argh, so so wanted to get their album, but thinking of that i could get their album here for about S$20, i gave up that idea.. :-)

"life isn't about love and dating, there are other things that we can do also, for example, we can help other people..."

on leave today. well, actually is to skip the christmas lunch, because i don't feel like going, and because the people that i am close to are not there too, so i decided to skip it.... hehehehe

and yeah christmas is here.. very soon in 3 days time.. i din do any shopping this year, not for anybody special, not for any friends.. so sorry!

but yet, i received a box of merci from andrew, present from yp and my big boss wl, thanks!!

this year, i am feeling especially cold (because it has been raining for days and the temperature is low at nights) and yes, lonely... there is not anybody to accompany me during this festive season, this christmas and the forthcoming new year... so so lonely.. of course, i have my baobei with me, and yah, he's the only one who will accompany me, who will smile at me and won't bully me and won't make me cry...

what do i want for christmas? i want a boyfriend, someone who likes me, willing to accompany me, willing to make me happy, and willing to take care of me...

will i get my christmas present? ... ...

anyway with that aside, i think now, i only want my parents, my baobei, my sister and her husband to be happy... if they are healthy and happy, i will be happy too... :-)

and if i were to leave dbs next year after getting my variable bonus, most probably i will go into hotels industry or the IR thingy, to go into finance department or smilar stuff, since i studied finance and since i have experience in working in banks...

urgent leave . actually i felt nausea after lunch yesterday, seen doctor and took half day mc and went home at about 3pm plus.

took medicine at night already. stomach still feels abit odd after i woke up, so i decided to take urgent leave. sigh.

ya sick again. i hate it when i feel nausea. yucky!

i am at home, putting up the auctions thing, and watching tv and ya, feeling nausea (or maybe hungry). i hope i can eat my lunch later, or else i'll feel nausea and hungry, and i really hate it!!!

hmm its been two weeks since i updated my diary.. what have i been doing?

been doing nothing lar.. just working, going out after work, slacking and sleeping during weekends.. haven been playing mahjong these few weeks cos nobody jio also.. well i think there was one saturday where boon jio but i think there wasn't enough khakis..

oh ya i bought my laptop liao.. wai siong and lih ching accompanied me to funan during lunch one of those weekdays and i bought my laptop liao! oh yeah i am paying it via instalments hahaha.. and guess what, we went back super late that day, think we reached office near to 3pm lor.. hahaha super right?

christmas is coming real soon.. how am i going to spend? hmm good question, i also dunno.. thought of organising one christmas party, but then go whose house, prepare what food, and what to do during the party?? all these needs brainstorming and planning YAH...

as for vc, well, i think all of us have been slackinG... i guess its partly because we didnt get the flea market (as planned).. but yeah, i know that there have been discussions of lowering our prices.. FINALLY they have decided to lower the prices.. i have always been wanting to lower our price but somehow my suggestion didnt get approved in the first place.. anyway now that they have approved on lowering the prices, i am more than willing to do that... wo ho!

wq have not been sms-ing me as frequent as before.. when i bought my laptop that day, i met him online, and somehow he knows that i bought my laptop already, he wanted to pay part of it, but i told him not to bah, thereafter he sms me say that he really dunno what christmas present to get for me... OH WELL...

been thinking alot these days (ahh, i thought i think alot ALL the times?)... what job i want to do in the future? which line? which industry? i told andrew that i feel like going into the hotel industry, he says that he feels i am the sort to go into hotel jobs.. oh really? hehehe.... at first i wanted to go take up a psychology course but then seeing the course fees, i gave up that idea.... i think when you have a little savings, you wouldn't bear to part with it bah... :-)

but ya lar, i know i have to pursue the things i like when i still have time on earth, if not you never know when u will leave, thus leaving regrets..

i could probably go into volunteer work.. hahaha :-)

and yes, the christmas card for him.. i will send bah, when i find a nice and suitable one for him..

went to jingting hse at chai chee. her 21st birthday.

had lots of food. curry, mee goreng, and most yummy of all, chocolate cake!

went home. stomachache in the end. hahahaa...

i think i got to really sit down and seriously think what i want to do in the future. cos i have been feeling so lost recently. no motivation, nothing. no exercise, no metabolism, no energy, no concentration.

yea, its december. end of the year again. time for resolutions... again