funny dream i had last night. its not a dream, its a nightmare cos i woke up in shock! hahaha..

well i dreamt that i got married, and guess who the other party was? most unexpectedly, boon!! hahaha.. yes i woke up in shock..

really a funny dream.. i can even laugh now when i recall.. the most interesting part was that in the dream, he carried me on his back and he walked up the overhead bridge near my house and he said that i was heavy, but i told him its because he is too skinny.. hahahaha

interesting isn't it?

ah boy's birthday

saturday, 24 feb 2007.
ah boy's birthday party. we held it at rc at blk 214. ordered a buffet and a birthday cake.

my relatives came, my sister's friends came, my brother in law's relatives came.. wasn't too many people, but then i was feeling abit sick, kept walking here and there and at the end of it, i was feeling real tired and weak..

as usual, my aunties played mahjong at my house, till 9 plus.. i was down with cold by then.. ate medicine and slept early..

he's one year old already.. time flies right? he's older, i am getting older also.. hahaha..

my leave is going to end soon.. going back to work on tuesday, finally..

and the best of all, i am getting my bonus tonight.. hahah dunno how much i will get wor.. *all smiles*.. but then better not have so much hope, scared of disappointment.. hehehee...

i saw chris online just now, but still, no courage to talk to him..

friends are very important to me...

thursday. 22 feb 2007. went to hy's 舞狮馆 for mahjong with him, cs and one of his friends.. first time that i played with them and they played quite big.. so in the end, i lost quite abit also.. hahaha..

initially arranged to go watch movie with ys.. just when i was hesitating and decided not to go for the movie, boon called and jio for dinner together with wq and ys.. hahaa, in the end, we went for steamboat dinner at bukit timah and went to boon house for mahjong after our dinner.. we started at around 10pm plus and ended at 4am plus.. thereafter we had breakfast at mac near boon's workplace and sent him to work.. then ys sent us home.. reached home at 6am.

:-) i am very happy whenever friends are with me. i really cherish the times with them. i want to thank them for their company, really. i am very very happy today.

ya one more thing, i saw chris online that day.. guess he have unblocked me already.. i also dunno what to talk about if i were to initiate a talk with him.. hahahaa..

chu san. third day of cny. organised one gathering at my house. nearly wanted to cancel the gathering or ask the people to go over to someone'e else house instead. cos old ailment lar, stomach acting up again. was feeling abit xin ku. but then, i had to go ahead with it lar, cos its been a long time since i saw my friends and my dad had already prepared curry for them.. so i went ahead with it (in the hope that they wouldnt end so late)..

yp and steven reached first.. pretty early.. but the earliest was ck, he called me and asked if anybody was there and said that he had reached (but i wasnt sure where he was lar), then he said that it would be pretty odd if he came up first and then he decided to go home first (he came over from other friends' house)..

long time since i saw steven.. din really change alot, but as usual, quiet.. then ys and dgua came, followed by ic..

boon called and asked if he could bring his cousins over.. it was definitely okay for me.. i couldnt refuse right.. hahaha.. so he brought along a crowd of 7 ppl, his cousins and their partners.. well, that was definitely a "out" crowd.. for the owner (me) din even know who they was.. hahahaa..

they asked me to collect entrance fee as well as drinks' fees from them.. suddenly i feel so "deja vu".. the words were so familiar.. then i recalled, there was one year i organised this kind of gathering at my house and i invited all secondary school friends and there was chris and steven also... in the end, chris asked his friends over and the scenario was similar, his group of friends were bigger and they played blackjack in my room, whereas the rest of us were in the living room.. and boon asked me why i din mind chris's friends coming over and then i said its okay and he told me that i cannot be okay with anything one... hahaha... but he did the same to me this year.. hahaha.. oh well.. perhaps he know i wouldnt mind

but then his cousins din stay for long.. left about 7pm plus 8..

oh ya, jz, ck and wq reached thereafter.. ck stayed for awhile and elvin and dgua reached thereafter.. and then, jz elvin ys and dgua played mahjong.. and the rest of us played cards.. ws reached pretty late..

they ended the mahjong at around 1am and we all went for supper thereafter.. reached home at about 3am plus..

happy new year!!

chinese new year is here!! the year of the pig!! i hope everyone will stay healthy and happy and may all your wishes come true!!

i have tried adding chris to my msn again and told yp that i want to get in contact with him. chinese new year eve, i sent him an email asking how he is.. and he replied me!

i am happy.. at least i know he is not ignoring me or avoiding me or refuse to accept me as a friend. ask me why i did that? well, this idea has been on my mind for a long time but i din have the courage to do it. i dunno if i have any hopes of getting back together with him or i purely want him back as a friend. i really have no answer to that question now. but all i know is that i dun wish to have any regrets in future, so tata! i did it, the first step!

chu yi. went bai nian as usual. but then the houses that we go to are getting lesser, year by year. i sent him a cny greeting and he sent me back one. courtesy.

yes, i admit that i did feel abit lost after seeing his fwded sms to me. but the happy feelings override the lost feelings.. soo.. conclusion, i am still happy!

i remember when i was young, we used to visit alot of families (all was my father's side) and could only finish at around 3-4pm in the afternoon and we would go to my big auntie house to settle down and finish the chu yi day.

but now, its so different from what is in the past. lesser houses to visit. the atmosphere is not that strong and my aunties looks older and my cousins looks more matured and blah blah...

anyway i am glad that i took the first step for chris case. probably the next time i would ask to meet up? hahaha we'll see how..

:-(

went to east coast alone today. cycled under the sun, sat down on the bench enjoyed the sea breeze. relaxing!! needed some peace, from work, from people and from my house..

supposed to meet sh ad and vin for dinner. but last minute i decided not to go because i was feeling real tired and abit unwell, perhaps i din eat a proper lunch earlier on.

went home. ate my dinner. my parents went to aunt justina hse with ah boy.

earlier in the day, i heard that yong-pa wasnt feeling well and my parents wanted to go visit him. but then i found them at home, they didnt go and visit him.


生命真的很 fragile 和 short.. nobody really knows when it is going to end.. or rather isn't it scary to know the deadline to ur life?? how is one going to face his or her own life after knowing such news??

i feel so sad now.. i am also very scared.. things or problems we face everyday.. nothing can be compared to ur own life.. so why are we getting so bothered or fed up or frustrated over the small things we face everyday?

and.. talking about cherishing things.. sometimes we only know how to say but about doing it, few people can really do it..

痛！ 痛!!

pain! my back's aching!
dunno what is happening.. dunno if i shopped and walked alot that night? or dunno is because of the high heels? sigh..

paranoid! paranoid!
keep thinking what is wrong.. i can only hope that the pain goes away soon.. *prays hard*

my body's weak hor? feels so unhealthy. dun wish to be a burden to anybody. sometimes thinking about this, feels glad that he left me early, at least i wont be a burden to him.

anyway.. no point talking about this now. its all in the past. i only want to be happy and healthy now so that i can give my family a happy and healthy lives also..

chinese new year. love and hate.