i read thru my past diary entries. realised how much i went thru during my past relationship with chris. so painful. i was giving in alots and getting very little. my heart ached when i read thru my past entries.

it was a past relationship. it was a first time for me in life. it was an experience. it made me learnt alot of things. it changed my thinking in relationships. the things that happen before and after our breakup also made me realised the importance of certain things.

my thinking in certain things still has not changed. however some thinkings have changed deeply. i feel that i have matured in some sense, from the way i handle some things and from the way i view certain things.

well, although it was heart breaking. but it made me grow up so i guess it was still all worth it. although the ending wasn't good, but the process was somewhat good and i think thats what all it matters.