went through 2 practices and finally evaluation. i passed..

spent abt 3 hrs of my morning there.. let's hope i can pass my test successfully....

friday. on leave.

i failed again... SOBS... and i am so demoralised everytime i fail..
looks like i dun really understand... i am stupid.. i am stupid.. i am stupid....
i was stupid......................

on course for 3 days. derivatives. i used to hate that, and now, i dun think i had grow any likes for it either hahaha.. but the trainer was interesting (although he was an ang moh..) he explained to us in a more simple way and practical sense.. hmm, i do like his way of teaching...

back to work.. argh, as usual, work piled uppp..

alot of things went wrong.. sobs.. lots of finding to do, lots of looking through the old files... haiz.

costa sands chalet at resort downtown east.
i thought it will be small because it is only one storey.. but hey, the size turned out to be okay.. enough to place a mahjong table inside!! hahah!

and so we checked in. put down our bags and started to walk around. hmm, lots of shopping areas..

went back to chalet and waited for dad to arrive. they sky was abit dark by then. dad reached and we changed into our swimsuits. i had 4 free admission tickets to either escape themepark or wild wild wet and so we chose wild wild wet!!

we went into wild wild wet but less than 1 hr, it rained heavily.. and so, we were freezing outside and went back to the chalet. bathed, changed.. it was still raining heavily.. so we watched tv till ah boy fell asleep.

and we checked out, ate at bedok and came back home.

tiring day.

and.. look at what my boy did...

been tempted to change handphone recently.. hahaha.. yeah i know its "again"... but really lor, like what yp says, if daiso one day sells electrical products, i think i will not be against going daiso to shop.. lol!!

went kk hospital to visit my auntie at night. she was abt to give birth but she started bleeding on sunday and so she was hospitalised.

my mum was talking to her.. asked me to give her some dial-taxi number so that she could call for a taxi if anything happens. i saw her handphone and suddenly, i feel heartpain. her hp is those kind of normal, plain, just for dialing purposes and very old kind..

well my uncle wasn't well-to-do.. i felt heartpain because i suddenly hated myself for changing hp so frequently and there infront of me, a family just having enough to feed themselves...

i dun really understand the meaning of 知足。。
although i keep reminding myself.. but these reminders dun seem to be working.. right?

how can i make myself understand these simple phrases and put them into place... ?

this is such a long week. anxiety, nervousness. heart-wrenching.
such a realistic world..

aug our big bear. he left. well, he was intending to resign, but our boss asked him to wait till retrenchment. and so, he left.

although it was good news for him, as well as for ourselves.. but i still couldn't bear to see him go.

he is one nice man. our big bear. always the one to drive us around, treat us to lunch and more.. no more showing of his big fist to me when he walk passes me.. no more big bear....

announced retrenchment.

im very worried. although our boss did assure us. but....

im just worried. :(

我很不开心。。。

i've feeling worried and down. my mum's complaining of abodominal pain. went to see doctor, doc says its gastric pain. i hope that is it.. hope its nothing serious.

cant help but feel worried.

if i had a wish, i hope my family members and ppl i care for stay healthy and happy.

後青春期的詩

mayday de new album!