he went sch. i was supposed to get up and have breakfast. but i slept until he came back from sch.

he rem that he said something like me going for somebody else if i were to find someone nicer. he said he wan to take back the words now. i smiled when i heard that. well, it definitely meant something. he is begining to be afraid of losing me. :)

went out ard 2pm. had kfc at a nearby shopping centre near hotel. slacked around and we were on our way to his uni. he had to attend a workshop from 5pm to 7pm. and so, he had plans to place me in computer lab where i could pass time while he attended his workshop.

but alas, i got chased out of the computer lab after 15 minutes. the caretaker said that outsiders weren't supposed to use the computer lab. and so, i ended up sitting outside the computer lab. falling asleep and waking up soon after. wanted to sms him, but i found that useless and din want to disturb him also.

i slacked. thereafter i got entertained by a few girls, who were practising some dance. well, i love to see dance.

and soon he came to fetch me. we left the room. i saw him acknowledging the few girls. well, he knew them. he din hold my hands when we left the room. i just walked behind him.

i was pretty upset over that. i dun like it when i dun feel the acknowledgement from him. i already felt unwanted when i got chased out of the computer lab. and now, i felt i was unwanted by him. he din acknowledge me as his gf when we left the room, infront of his friends. what was i behind him? friend? sister? or some stranger? or some follower following him?

when i felt upset, i really dun feel like talking to him. he was upset that i was ignoring him.

we talked before we went out of the car. he said he felt shy. afraid of the gossip that will come.

till now, i still couldnt understand what kind of gossip he was afraid of. hmm. well, i guess every person has their own likes and dislikes, will-dos and will-not-dos.

i cried in the car. i was upset. but i was even more afraid that he was upset. i wanted to let things pass, but deep down, i was really upset. he promised to hold my hands wherever we are, whoever we are infront of in future.

i was glad that we talked it out. it din make the night bad. if it did, i'll feel super guilty. thats what i like abt him. he is that patient with me, 'forcing' me in a way to talk things out, to say the things i feel and all my unhappiness.

he will go all out to solve any problems between us and he will be there to listen to me, to talk to me, and to advise me.

we watched movie at siam paragon. bangkok traffic love story. thai movie with english subtitles.

a simple and touching love story. i cried towards the end. wet his shirt sleve.

in the show, it said something like loving someone doesnt mean having to meet the person everyday. loving someone assures you that you are being loved.

very meaningful.

i had haigen diaz ice cream. yummy!!

went to get supper after the movie. bought bbq food at the roadside stalls at central world. back to hotel. ate and slept.

a night full of tears. i was counting down. 2 more days.

wasnt sure if i made a good choice in not going krabi. it was a hard one. i did it. not sure of the consequences though. dunno if yp is still angry with me. i hope she is enjoying herself. i really hope she will understand me. i know its not good. i know it seems like i am over my bf over everything else. but everyday, every hour, every minute counts to us.

if he is with me everyday, i wouldnt have made this choice, forsaking my sisters. but fact is he is not. it will be another 2-3 months before we can meet again.

i really hope they can understand.