maybe if one day he cant find me, cant contact me, he may not feel as worried as i felt yest... I find myself so stupid, feel so foolish, feel so worried and in e end i get shit again....

so not responsible.. Ya he's responsible to e entire world outside.. But is he responsible to me?

One word of busy and that gives him excuse not to contact me.. Is sparing tat few minutes of sms-ing me so difficult for him?

Managed to get him in e end.. Happy that he is safe... But pissed off when i hear his happy voice... Pissed off.... Happy angry, mixed feelings... And i cried again.

Couldnt sleep last night... I kept thinking...
:(

Maybe i cant understand how busy he is..
I dunno... Im tired of fighting for his time, his attention.. Other things just rank first... Me?
I Dunno where i rank....

And... I am really tired of it.