Another night of non-goodnite and non-goodnite kiss.

Am i in the wrong to ignore him in the first place? Am i wrong not to disturb him when he's doing assignments? Am i wrong to find a suitable chance to address him when he said i haven address him?

singapore zoo!

yeah! we went to the zoo today! my first time there! and boy's first time too! woke up early in the morning. had breakfast and we headed to the zoo. it was a hot and sunny day. lucky we went early. it was getting unbearable in the afternoon. reached abt 9+ and we went home ard 2pm.

well.. i guessed everybody enjoyed the zoo.

happy birthday my boy! i wish that good health and great happiness may always be with you~ Let's grow up to be a strong boy ok?

he had a birthday celebration at school. at night, we brought him to Parris international buffet at marina square. he ate lots of food. he was happy.

what matters to me is that you are happy and healthy .. and of course, a good boy.











grandmum and him.

Rooster
Fortune of Love: Those born in 1981, this is a good year for marriage

Dog
Fortune of Love: This is a good time for those born in 1982 to tie the knot.

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just an extract of the sheng xiao readings.. i just found it funny. found it to be so coincidental... LOL.

你每次伤心，我每次缺席，遥远的距离。

talked to ginny on fb. she asked me abt him. and she told me some interesting stuff.

she said in our photo, he looked 幸福。 and from the photos, he looked as though he's telling everyone "hey she's mine".

yesterday was e first time (i guess) that he left without a goodnite and a kiss.

Today.. He promised to be online, even if he's in uni.. But i dun see him online.. I reached home at abt 4 after bai nian..

And so.. Happy valentine's day.

it was a bad night yesterday. I waited for him until very sian. It was a misunderstanding but i was just sian of this waiting feeling.

Bad morning. Dunno why i had to bring up that topic again. But i was really sore abt it. Yes i kept my feelings tat time. But i was upset abt it. He could have been back now.....

And how to not question abt it after knowing he has got a new netbook? ..... 13,800 baht vs flight ticket of 5,000 baht....

Anw it was a bad morning. I knew e consequences but yet i had to bring it up...

He's online now but we aren't talking...

It is new year's eve and valentine day's eve.

我相信我们之间，越难得就越值得。

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my favourite officer, bernard, got promoted! yeah! i feel so happy for him! congrats!

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i was talking to marina today. as usual, she asked me abt him. she is one success story with long distance relationship. she dated a hongkonger, married him and is now happily married with kids, staying in spore. she told me abt her story. how she dated her husband, how she left her work and mum here to go hongkong. and guess what, she was the only child. and she left her mother alone to go hongkong to be with him. after 5 years in hongkong, they came back to spore cos of their children, better education in spore.

she told me to be brave. to look forward and do what i can now. maybe things will turn out to be good? no point thinking too much now. maybe if i take the step out, it will turn out to be good afterall.

i felt enlightened after listening to her. i thought, maybe i should really do what i want to do..

but then... is it really my call now? is the ball in my court now?

i got no mood to work today.. alot of things to do yet no mood.

i miss the green green grasslands.. i miss feeding the sheeps.. i miss the big piece of grasslands, surrounded by mountains, the sky and the clouds.

i miss the place...

im back from taiwan. it started with tired and lots of missing him, but ended up with a super low mood.

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what he said to me on friday still lingers in my mind. i believed that he loved me and thats why we are together, until friday he said he dunno what he felt for me is love or not. i have 2 interpretations to that. either he meant that he did so much things and yet i still doubt his love OR he really meant that he dun feel love for me.

he said he felt sad cos i cant feel his feelings for me. and whether he loves me, is what i think, and not what he say.

is the ball really in my court now? is it really what i think that matters? i thought it should be the other way round, he confirming his love for me with himself and then assuring me of his love for me. isn't that the way?


am i the one having high expectations? or is he the one having high expectations? expecting me to know he loves me, expecting me not to doubt him no matter what he does, no matter what happens.

i dunno. i feel tired.

and then for today.. there isn't any sms from him, no reply from him despite me sending him 1 sms in the morning. he asked me to judge from his actions......

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i am at home. and i am feeling stressed again. being at home is so stressful.....
:(

Yang Ming Shan

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Taipei High Speed Rail



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Green Green Grasslands










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