No ice cream for me...

Last 2 months was craving for chocolate.. But now is craving for ice cream... Had wanted to get ice cream for myself after I finished shopping... But after some careful and serious thoughts, I decided not to have it.. And so, no ice cream for me.

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Suddenly I hate myself very much..... Have to think carefully over the food I eat.. Have to keep a food diary... Have to bother myself over my hair... Very fierce at times... Bad tempered person... Can't express myself well.... Can't control my emotions... A series of bad points....
Why would people want to bother themselves over me???