I can see it coming...

I can sense a quarrel..
Its a cycle.. I needed him... He wasn't free.. And then he was still busy... Then I gave up... Then he began coming back when he's free and available.. I felt it was meaningless anymore cos I could depend on myself to get rid of my unhappiness.. Then he got fed up over my no-replies.. And he got defensive.. And I got defensive too.. And he began to bring up past incidents.. And then I got fed up cos he should focus on the incident that just passed... And then it was defensiveness and arguments.. Each trying to argue their own viewpoints... Then its a few days of quiet..... And the cycle just keep repeating itself.

It is so repetitive that I can Forsee what is coming...
I am trying to stop at the stage where I start becoming defensive.. In order to stop this vicious cycle.
But I cant help......


"Feel like an idiot looking at my HP all the time even when the phone dun ring."
And I wasnt an idiot .. holding on to my BB the whole day waiting for his 2nd or 3rd msg.....