It was just temporary peace....

Wanted to have some quiet and peaceful times at home... I didn't want to go out.
They went out.. I was at home, reading book and fell asleep.

They came home.. And then it was noise noise and more NOISE...

Kemp was low at 1.1.. Ate sweets before that... So he was lower before that.
Gave him sweets immediately.. He was low and was in a bad mood. Scolded dad for driving so slowly.. Scolded mum for spending so much time at the temple and while buying food... Scolded everyone but himself...

I scolded him for not eating enough breakfast in the morning.. He cried and cried and throw tantrums...
It was super NOISY....

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guess what will be the outcome if I went? I would be able to measure his reading on the van when dad was driving and gave him sweets immediately... Then he wouldn't have threw his tantrums when he got home...

All this unhappiness just because I wanted some time to myself and hid at home..

How to make myself less important...? How to make my responsibility lesser in this house?
How to......
I am really very tired............
How to be independent.....?