Not supposed to feel afraid at work.... Because I am senior and Experienced.  

So I am not supposed to feel afraid.... Not supposed to tell anybody that I am scared.... Sigh. 

I cannot complain and give that scaredy face like those young girls.... Sigh.

I just have to swallow everything into my stomach.  And not let anybody know. 

They say.  When you are troubled but yet not say anything, the people who are concerned about you will be even more heartbroken to see you like that.  I never did realise that.  I only know that I shouldnt bother other people with my troubles. Because its my problems and not theirs... Wrong to do that?  I dont know.... Sigh.