Feeling down

Feeling down.  Knew that LY got promoted after taking cases for less than 1 year. 

A promotion.  Something that I yearn for after my Dad stopped working and I have to feed the whole family with what I earn, without any savings every month, sometimes eating into my savings..... 

But take on cases?  Something that I need to do in order to get promoted but always fear. 

Wanted to take the paper this year and if I pass, I could say somethings during the appraisal.  But no, in the end, I din take the paper and I din say anything during my appraisal.  So disappointing. 

So disappointed in myself.