went comex 2006 at expo.. i bought my ipod video... haahaa

played mj with ys, ic and tehua! hahaa.. long time since i saw him man.. hahaa.. we were in same class, 1/7 and 2/7... hahaha

still the same.. cold joker.. hahaa.. but nice meeting up with him..

i sold my laptop.. at yahoo auctions.. met that lady and passed her the laptop....

went out with ys at night.. we went rc to play pool.. then cosy bay then pasir ris park.. wah one shot i brought him to so many places.. haaha.. all these places, i have been to them with him previously.. so i guess i just feel like going back .... cos i missed him terribly.... every saturday night, esp when they are playing mj at my house, boon would want to see soccer scores .... so i will be online the entire night.... i think, does he wonder why i am stil online so late in the night? does he ever notice that?

on leave. mother and i brought baobei to yue liang house.. meeting sabina and her germaine at her house also..

they were having lots of fun... but baobei cried badly after awhile.. headache sia...

well.. we left early and we brought him to marina square... we had sakae for lunch....

went out with ys for supper.. i brought him to geylang for dim sum... thereafter i wanted to bring him to cosy bay but then he took the wrong route and we ended up at bedok jetty.. hahahaa...

had a dream yest night.. yes, i dreamt of him.... dreamt that he wanted to come back to me....

yucks.. wat stupid dream.. but it clearly reflects what i was thinking during the daytime...

confused + confused....

checked email... and i saw that email that he sent me....

so wats that supposed to mean huh? www.lovehappens.com... friends help friends to find love... ??

saw his email.. i felt so.... ahh, dunno how to describe my feelings lor.. angry? nervous? excited? i dunno... totally CONFUSEd.... i only know i was simply bothered by that email....

i want to know why he sent tat to me.. or am i just conveniently on his contacts list? .........

i tot he wanted to let me know that he's single... but then when i go see his profile on the lovehappens.com, it didn't state anywhere that he was single, and he also wasn't 'looking for love', he was just a 'helper', helping friends to find love.......... blah.......

yes i know.. i'm thinking of stupid stuff again......

actually agreed to go out for drinks with YJ.. but in the end, i sms him that i was going to play mahjong tonight, so i couldn't meet him... well, he didn't reply... hmm..

me went ponggol clinic to see the breakout on my face.. shit, the doc says "i told you that there are 4 things that you cannot do, cannot go for facials, cannot blot face or touch or wipe face when face is oily, dun squeeze pimples.. and do not use any toner or moisturer... ahh... i only rem the first three lor.... shit, so its really because of the derma products... sigh... he gave me antibiotics again... for 3 weeks... haiz...

k lor.. ai mei bu yao ming lor... hahhahaa....

back to office.. work usual piling up and getting more bored.. thought of the two girls leaving soon, makes me more sian also.. cos we would be shorthanded again.. arghh..

the webby is almost done.. happy... but i also feel guilty lar.. cos i didnt do much work also.. they like so busy editing the images, thinking of the web layout, searching for scripts blah... but im like, sitting there doing nothing.... sigh... worse thing is that someone thinks im good at web designing.. but i'm not! my knowledge is only half pail of water lor.... or rather one quarter full only....

suddenly feel so useless lor.. as if i can't succeed in anything... work performance has been average or poor recently... everything i do seems half here half there.... nothing is complete.... or nothing complete is done by me lor....

down.... demoralised... feel like doing something on my own.... to motivate myself..to make myself feel useful again.... else i will feel so so useless... sigh....

want to take up new things.. to have new sunshine in my life.. but its you xin mei li lor....

on leave today... wahhaha.. happy no need to work..

YJ sms me.... told me that he broken up with his gf.... not sure of the details... but i promised to go drinking with him if he doesn't mind a non-drinker accompanying him....

OMG.. dunno wat happen also...... sigh....

KH called me early in the morning.. he was looking for the A*** loan memo.. i put in big boss tray leh.. but somehow it went missing... well.. then the next day, he told me what happened.. they couldn't find the loan memo, and so they printed out another copy and got wai leng to sign cos big boss wasnt around.. but she refused to sign.. cos for this loan, i actually mark-up lower than the approved markup.. approved was 30 basis points, guess wat was the markup? it was only 9 basis points lor... little wonder she didnt want to sign lar.. my fault actually lar, didnt expect customer to take this loan.. KH did help me to try to talk to customer.. but no use, so KH say since i already quoted, we have to give customer the loan at that rate lor..... but in the end, they got the loan memo signed by wai leng cos wai leng talked to big boss and disbursed the monies out...

that time that j** incident, KH also helped me to talk to customer and managed to solve the problem... he has indeed helped me alot... promote me to BEA somemore whereas i find my own performance average only.. sometimes i find myself dun deserve that BEA position lor.... dun deserve that promotion at all.... dunno why he recommended me also..... i know he wants me to train to become officer... but i stil dun want.... abit letting him down lar.. but then..

hmm.. am i ready for all those meeting customers, writing of memos, dicussions with big bosses, analysing, decision making?? i really dunno leh..... i feel like taking up at times.. but at times, i feel so comfortable doing what i am doing now that i refuse to take up new things and stress myself anymore.... arghh...

sigh.. recently dunno why have been making such mistakes at work lor... then KH also very nice lar, he helped me alot already.. i very grateful to him already... covered up for me also... thanks ah..

ys appeared at my door with the software... stalker! scare me man... no more this kinda of surprises next time.... i scared....

slept until 6pm lor... ridiculous... haahah

ate pizza for dinner... chatted with IC and YS at night... IC say tat his gf was angry at him smoking... chey, i thought she was angry cos she's like the only one doing all the work....

YS felt guilty for leaving the chalet so early.. ehh, but we felt nothing lehs..... hahhaa...

i put my nick as "wo xi wang..." he asked me wat was my wish... i told him i dunno, tats why i put 3 dots at the end... then i say "why.. wanna be my genie ah"..... he say once i know wat i want, then he will try to fulfill my wish, wants to be my genie.... hahaaa....

too bad.. he's an aquarius.. same as him..... he's a nice guy... but then...

woke up at 12pm plus.... YS sms me the list of food to get.... woke up and got ready to go down to the chalet... waited for waisiong to come fetch me..... went to super market to get the food.... as usual, he nag nag again...

yes yes.. i listened to his nagging... all the way from jurong to changi lor..

went to seng siong at taman jurong cos IC told us to go there.... but we both were very fed up cos the stuff there was super messy lor.... couldn't find the stuff that we needed.....

in the end, we went to the seng siong at ten mile junction which was near waisiong hse... finally got all the things that we wanted... thereafter he drove me to railway mall cos he wanted to buy 4D...

then......... finally on our way to changi...... we left at about 5pm lor... faints...

fun fun... started our BBQ... me and kitty didn't have to do anything.... all done by the guys.... hahaha.....

IC, boon, YS, waisiong, weisiong, keng ngee, weiqi, me and kitty, IC gf, weisiong gf.....

though it was the usual ppl... but i was happy already.... hard to find friends who click... and hard to remain in contact for so long..... such stories, always so touching..... hahahaha..............

mahjong, black jack, dai ti, dice.. everything, we played almost everything lor..... hahahaha....

in the end, me and kitty didn't dare to sleep.. cos heard rumours that the bed got ants.. eeekkk... haaha... we rather stay awake lor...... hahaaha

in the end, boon and YS accompanied us.... they also didn't sleep.... we played one round of mj.... till 7am... and they got ready to leave.. cos they got soccer match in the morning.......

we left with them..... we took cab home... super tired....

but thereafter i felt guilty lar.... cos i feel its because of us, thats why they also never sleep.... if we dared to sleep, then they would go sleep also lor.... hahahaa.....

woke up... told my father that i will take urgent leave.. he walked out of the room, mumbled "take urgent leave again"... wahh, felt so guilty after hearing that... so i woke up, got ready for work.... without bringing any clothes for the chalet lor....

went to work as usual.. but thinking of how to answer to them lor... hahaha...

met pauline s, sabina for lunch together with moon, puiling.... ate at yoshinoya.. chatted with them.... i think puiling got intentions to stay and train to be officer.... as for me, i got plans to leave lar.... maybe go into the IR industry? hahahaha...... well.. i've always wanted to go into hotel industry leh....

thought of an idea after lunch.. that is to go down..... and go home after the mj session... then go to the chalet again on saturday.....

set.. like that, won't be spoilsport in any case... hahaa

YS and boon came my office to wait for me.... in the end, i worked till 7pm.. they waited for me at lau pa sat.... had dinner with them... and we were on our way to the chalet!

fun fun... played until 3am plus... and i took cab home.... slept at 4am plus...

coffee at coffee bean at west mall at night, with IC, boon and YS... discussed about the chalet lor....

actually i didn't feel like going on friday... I wanted to ask them to find another khaki.. They tried but seems like nobody's free or willing to go down to changi to play mahjong lor.....

in the end, i sort of decided to take urgent leave and go with them to the chalet.....

then.... everything's settled... i won't be spoiling anybody's mood lor....

YS drove me to marina square.. we watched the tokyo drift... nice show, very similar to initial D... talked for awhile... fell asleep when he drove me back.... hahaha...

it was his 2nd time watching lor.... hahaha... well, he said he doesn't mind watching a second time....

he bought medicated balm for my blue black... say that he must give me the best comfort that he can.... so he must drive me...... *faints*

slept late or "early" again.. these few nights, have been sleeping at tat kinda hrs lor.... hahaha...

my eye care... buy liao, applying now.. dunno got use anot.. cos i slp at tat hrs.. hahaha

mahjong again... shit.. i think i getting abit sick liao......

went RC after mahjong, together with yongsheng, weiqi, jiashun, weiwen..

actually i was hesitating to go... but i still went in the end.. i know i will be very bo liao but i still went..

i want to see if i will bump into him there.... in the end, i bumped into yp and steven..

yp asked me if i have recovered all of a sudden... i asked her if steven got keep in contact with him... asked her if there is a possibility of steven meeting him without her knowing.. she say possible lor..

thought of him.. cos we also played pool during our first meeting....

i haven recovered.. seriously.. i still miss him alot... yp asked me to find another one.. its hard lor, cos will compare... AIYAH! i dunno lar..

i dun want to think now... i'm scared.. that i will go through the pain again... and nobody can guarantee that i wont go through the pain again....... sigh

anyway... can i have some fun first? though its lonely at times.. but i just wan to have fun....

mahjong is only for me to pass time.... actually i'm not concentrating at the game.. just trying to pass time... its easy to pass time u know... and im getting sick of it..... hahahaa... shit, then i got to find another hobby that is easy to pass time...... hahahaah

woke up early.. cos i gotto go singapore post to pick up my clothes... so tired...

came back and slept until 4pm plus..

fireworks! fireworks! fireworks!

kitty came over.. we unpacked the clothes.. hmm.. not bad, the quality this time was pretty good.. satisfied!

ie chen came over also... but i felt guilty lah... cos i know what he wants to do.. but in the end, we dragged him to ktv... opps... together with wai siong.. hahhaa

MC.. Cos diarrhoea the night before.. Shit... And I dunno the cause.. Arghh..

Ting coming my house tonight.. SHe getting the NDP tickets from my mother...

Well.. in the end, played mahjong with weiwen, yongsheng, jiashun... At my house..

They went home thereafter.. And weiwen yongsheng came back to fetch me to watch movie.. Lakehouse at Jurong Point...

Watched till 1am plus.. I decided to ask yongsheng to fetch weiwen home first before fetching me home... Intention was to go chua chu kang first.... Intention was to go there first.... Cos weiwen lives very near him.... Just felt like going there...... In the end, I came up with a better idea... Sent weiwen to his camp at queensway... Hahaha...

Went to Mac at Tea Garden for a short supper... Then we went home... But he drove me to Jurong Hill... I have never been there actually... There is a nice restaurant there... And its near Jurong Bird Park... Hmm.. next time can consider bring ah boy along.... Hehhee... Near somemore... Hehehe