ooohh... i fell down! at the stairs near the atm... ouchh!!!

so painful.. worse thing is there's a whole patch of blue black on my leg... sigh.. sobs...

met boon and wq for dinner... went to have thai food at marina square... then we played pool after dinner... well, they gave me pool training.. hahaha.... very patient with me and jus talked and talked about how i should aim and place my cue and blah.... hahahaa...

wq, boon and ys came my house for mahjong.. we played till 1am plus then we went out for prata after the game.. slept at 2am plus...

lunch with imran at sushi tei..... together with pl and jes.... hahaa... nice meeting him again.... heard from him he got a teacher-girlfriend..... and she's a chinese.... hahaha.... its okay lar, anw imran looks like chinese also..... he's always a cheerful guy, thats what i like about him... hahahaha

my birthday's next friday... but when its nearing soo soon, i feel more unhappy... i keep thinking of my bdae celebration the previous year.... i miss him so much, dunno if he remembers my bdae?

the one that i want to celebrate with is not by my side.... whereas the ppl who wants to celebrate with me are not the one that i want.... life's contradicting hor...... since i cannot celebrate with the one i want most, i choose to stay at home...

begining to be abit choosy and fussy.. begining to compare..... begining to be a little materialistic.... begining to know what i prefer.... or maybe not? i dunno....

been trying to find things that make me happy.. i think i have everything, but why am i still not happy?

shalley says she is very happy with her present bf..... she hopes to get married next year, thats what she say to us during our latest meet-up.... i can see that she is very happy.... she tells me, it is better to completely own a person cos what the person does, its for you totally.... she says this when she was comparing to her life when she was with elvin (the married guy)..... hmm....

in any case, glad to see her happy..

took urgent half day... went ponggol clinic to see my face... cos recently, the 2 cheeks red again, and very dry.... dunno why like that also...

went heartland mall at hougang, ate my lunch and shopped around.. then went ponggol clinic see my doctor.... cos actually my cleanser and cream very dry one.... so he told me not to use cleanser on my 2 cheeks, use it on other parts.... then use plain water wash until it recovers... then he never give me any more cream or whatsoever... and i wasn't charged for any consultation fees also..... hahaha..... so good right, hehehe... i am begining to like this stern-faced doctor of mine... hahhaa...

met shalley jawpin and andrew at night.... and i bought my lv wallet! hahaaa.... expensive but then something to pamper myself lar... hehehhee..... my first super branded stuff wor.... die, begining to be a little materialistic liao..... hahahaha

wait till the credit card bill comes.... hahhahaa.....

ate pastamania for dinner.. and we went hagen-diaz for drinks.... ate some ice cream.. woo yummy sia....

super busy... cos only me and jeslyn around... hahaha....

another superwoman-day....

wq waited for me at chinese garden mrt, passed me ice cream from swensens.....

my reaction was... again??? he wanted to walk me home.... but i refused, told him straight that i wanted to go home alone.... so i chased him away.....

went home... my parents and baobei ate the ice cream.... hmm... i ate a little....

went vivo with baobei, my parents, sister and bro in law.... shopped around.. but in the end, we didnt eat at vivo... we ate at harbour front.... cos simply too many people already...

ic called me and we chatted for awhile... guess what? he told me that ws got feelings for me (but not that extreme).... so ic came to test water... if its positive on my side, then ws will take action....

KAOZ! i was so angry when i heard that.... cos i know that it must be ic who started all these thing.... argh! he is simply too gossipy liao...

of cos i scolded him... and ask him to stop all these rubbish.... feel like strangling him at times.....

he is simply too bo liao...

went marina square to watch rob-b-hood with ys at night..... as usual lor, i just talk and talk.... when we finish watching the movie, on the way home, i just kept quiet and gave a din-feel-like-talking face.... he also kept quiet lor.... typical of him lar....

met ws and ic at night.. we went bedok jetty then to geylang for dim sum...

chatted as usual.... ws say that if i go put braces, my marks will at least increase by 30 marks... haahha.. so i asked him eh so whats my marks now? he says 65-70... hahha that means if i go put braces, i will be perfect lar.... hahahaha....

me ate chili crab at night.. wahh shiok.. hehee..

met ys for awhile, he passed me back one top.... he bought 2 dresses for his sister's birthday....

ys sms me in the morning, asked me if i wanted to go gym when i just woke up... hahhaa... then we chatted thru sms...

dunno what we talked and we talked abt wq.. he say wq was feeling moody when they were playing billard the previous day and that ys din see him like that before...

so i told ys dunno is it because of me.. so he asked me wat happen.... then i told him that wq likes me....

his first reaction was that wah u got so much mei li.. so many bees attracted to you...

then i told him not to joke abt it... and that i quite worried abt wq.. then ys suddenly say that wq might realise that ys also likes me, thats why he moody... but i wasn't too sure about that lar..

anyway now at least ys knows about it... i feeling at least abit comforted.. hahahaa....

thereafter me and ys chatted thru msn... so i asked him what he likes abt me.. he said he likes my simplicity and straightforwardness.... hahaha....

then he asked me what i look in a guy.... good to me, takes good care of me, good to my parents, have a good job and most importantly i must feel for him also...... but then my heart is abit numb liao, cannot feel anything....

so he asked "when will ur heart heals?"

well i dunno lar.... then he say "see who is the next lucky guy to heal it lor.."

lol.. then they came over my hse to play mahjong..

wq came after work, he bought dinner for us.. i ordered burger king... but when he came, he bought porridge for me knowing that i got diarrhoea in the afternoon.. but then baobei ate half of the porridge.. hahaaa.....

i guess boon knows abt it liao.. cos when he came, he asked me if the chocolates taste nice.... hmm...

ok lar.. we will see how the story goes from here.... keep it updated....

went out with ws and ic at night, after my dinner.. we went west coast park to chat..

guess wat, wq showed up at my blk's lift, passed me a box of chocolates from sins.. cos he felt that i felt moody and unhappy during our sms during the day, so he bought chocolates to cheer me up... and i saw him when i was going down to meet ws and ic...

so i only talked to him for awhile, thanked him for the chocolates and went to meet them already....

of cos... as usual they very kapo.. drilled me... and i told them everything lor.. including that ys also like me.. thats why i feel bothered at times..

guess what.. both of them told me tat ys is a good catch.. but i told them frankly that it is really ke xi that ys is still studying right now lor.....

at least when wq spends on me, i wont feel guilty cos i know he has got a job.. but when ys spends on me, i feel guilty cos he is not working..

and of course, the things they buy are of different "standards" one.. get what i mean?

but of course most importantly, i know both guys are good.. make good friends.. and i don't want to lose either of them lor..

met wq at harbour front.. ate yoshinoya and walked around... hehee.. i brought him to labrador park, we walked all the way in..

chatted quite abit.. he bought a jersey for baobei and a polo ralph polo tee for me..

hmm ok lar.. now, i don't really dare to have any judgement of anybody .. cos i realised that my judgement often fails me.. hahaha..

met boon, wq and ys.. we went taka to shop.. went to the lv shop, nearly bought a wallet but didnt buy it in the end cos i couldn't decide on a design...

then we went bugis for steamboat dinner.. nice place there... then went can cafe for drinks.. and lastly to rc, they played bilard..

went to my cousin's baby first month old celebration.. then went bugis temple to pray.. then went vivo city for awhile..

reached home, rested for awhile and i went jurong pt to meet boon and wq for dinner at sakae... wq paid for the dinner...

then after that, they came my house to play mahjong..

in the afternoon when i was sms-ing with wq, he said that he want to buy lv wallet and supp card for me... hahhaaa. funny right...

me and lc went lunch with ws and ic.. went tiong bahru eat curry rice.. hmm, nice... hehee.. it was last minute arranged one.. heheh.. good start then lc can start hanging out with us liao... hehehe

went out with kitty to marina square.. bought a top only.. well, ok, updated our stories.. heheeh... and dge came to fetch us home..

they went to watch movie, nv jio me... so heartless... sigh.. hehehe

started cover jeslyn.. super super busy lor... sian...

jio-ed kitty and qiang qiang for ktv.. but i put aeroplane last minute cos i felt abit sick.. decided not to go out cos i had to cover jeslyn the next day.. so better not risk it lar...

ys also jio to go vivo city but i rejected too... woo..

ic, boon, ys and wq came my house for mahjong.

i jio-ed wq at the last minute.. he wasn't free at first but later he still came cos i told him i was not feeling well so needed someone to stand in for me..

so i watched them play lor.. hahaa..

on leave. but didnt go anywhere.. slacked at home..

met wq online at night.. chatted quite abit.. watched my latest taiwan drama, wei xiao pasta.. hehee... not bad leh.. hehee.. male lead is zhang dong liang, innocent looking.. hehehee....

went shopping with kit after work.. she bought a present for dge... a raoul watch.. wooo.. nice..

went bukit batok to pick up clothes.. wai siong and ic called us.. met them thereafter..

went to kent ridge park and we chatted... then we went west coast park, had mac for supper... and finally went home..

was sms-ing wq all the while.. actually arranged to chat online but i couldn't make it.. hehehe..

talked abt planning, my impression of him.. and blah lar.. forget what else we talked about.. guess alot crap bah... hahaha....

woke up.. and went to jurong east to eat dim sum for breakfast..

thereafter we decided to go bedok, bringing baobei cos aunt eunice bought mooncakes for us.. well, as well as a short gathering bah.. long time since we go back to chai chee already ever since grandmother passed away.. hmm...

very soon, we reached bedok.. sat for awhile.. jason and cassandra joined us thereafter.. then they jio for mahjong, together with my father... i had no choice but to go with them.. argh, but soon found out that it was a bad choice.. hahahaa

played .. and i had not won a game.. so paiseh.. my father must be wondering what i had been doing in my room these few weeks when i am playing mahjong.. hahahaa

boon called me, arranged for mahjong around 5pm at his house.. at first i thought ic was playing.. then later i realised that it was wq and ys who was playing.. HMM... hehehe...

we stopped the game halfway and father rushed to drive me back.. baobei also needed to go back his hse..

ys came to fetch me to boon hse.. surprisingly he didnt go fetch wq.. hmm...

played mj with them.. talked alot.. haha.. got ppl want to buy present for me liao wor.. hahaha... happy.

i got ys to drive me to chris carpark.. to see if his car is around, if he's at home or not.. well, i saw his car, meaning he is at home..

yah, wat was i doing right? so what he is at home? so wat?? whatever.. i just wanted to go see, something which i wanted to do after we broke up...