sunny day. good day for suntanning. there's a bbq at ecp organised by jp and friends for their colleagues. i am invited but i am still not sure if i am going.. lol.

super tempted to go cycling at ecp. well, its still early now, 11.17am.

its been a quiet 2 weeks for me. going home after work and staying at home during weekends.

i think.. e story with st has ended bah. i havent been online these few days at night. havent been talking to him on msn. he din sms me also.

think the last time we spoke was when i was on half day, i went shopping and he called me regarding the citibank study loan. he wanted to ask me for dinner but i already arranged to have dinner with my parents. but i think he din mean to meet for dinner just saying only.

anyway i said i din want to get close to him anymore.. because i feel so much to care for him and i am afraid of falling for him.. the feeling of liking someone and not knowing if the other party will reciprocate is.. just so uncertain..

its like deja-vu.. just like christopher.. i fell for him first also, then slowly he developed feelings for me and we were happy for some time.. and things just ended

i dun wan uncertainty. but then, everything in life is uncertain.