dinner with ic at vivo at this japanese gourmet restaurant. i owed him 1 dinner. for all the trouble i caused him during my holidays.. oh well.

my dad brought my mum to see doc.. she had high blood pressure. doc told her to go back on sunday for revisit.

i'm worried abt her. i haven been caring about them since i came back...

i thought of alot of things these few days. i think of the future. wondering what will happen to us in future. wondering if i can ever leave things down here and do what i should do or ought to do.

i really feels like doing what my heart ask me to do.. but things aren't so easy.. and very often, i do not have a choice. i have a responsibility. i have ppl whom i need to take care of. how can i ever be so selfish and only think of myself?

i'm really afraid.. afraid that i may waste my time and effort again, afraid of getting the feeling that i felt 3 years ago.. i'm really scared.

i saw something posted on fb again.. and i feel upset again. :(