Thursday, August 13, 2009

i woke up. i dun think i slept. or maybe yes, a little.

i wrote an email to him. i said, i felt upset. cos the more i think, the more i feels that what he has told me are all excuses.. and it all points to the fact that he dun wan to bring me home. maybe cos i am not presentable enough? maybe cos he thinks i am not worthy enough? or maybe cos.. he thinks that im not the right girl to bring back home? i just felt upset.

and so i sent e email.

went to work. couldnt concentrate e whole day. i felt sleepy.

i cooled down. calmed down. realised that.. i was making a mountain out of a mole. and i regretted sending the email. i wanted to recall.. but at the same time, i wanted to see what he will reply to the email..

went home. actually i din want to go online. i dunno if he'll talk to me. i dunno what we'll talk abt.

i saw his email reply. i cried. especially at the part where he says, he feels that he has wasted his effort that he has put in this rship.. and that he feels unhappy abt seeing my email.

i was guilty. damn guilty. i jus thought that.. its my fault entirely.

i went online. he talked to me! he actually talked to me!
i thought he'll ignore me for days.. i thought he will be that kind whom wouldnt face problems..

i am so glad that he talked to me. if he din talk to me, i think i would have felt worse. im really glad..

we talked abt it after a while.. i apologised. he gave me alot of 大道理。。 which are all i guess, we need to really take it and learn.

i felt good. im not only happy to have him, im also glad to have him.
and.. thanks for his patience with me and his maturity..

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