which one is it..?
absence makes the heart fonder? or..
out of sight, out of mind?

he's back from the camp. i was happy to see him. i missed him too. we chatted. but i was feeling emotional. i saw a few updates on fb. i felt upset again.

i knew he was tired. i knew he just came back. i knew i shouldnt bother him too much. but i couldnt control myself.
and so.. i told him i feels like deleting him from fb.

i just din want to see his updates.. din want to see his comments abt his friends.. din want to see his photos or whatsoever..
it will only make me upset.

comments abt friends' updates. there is so many choices. u can choose to 'comment', choose to click 'like'. or.. u can choose to ignore!?!@!@2?
why mus he choose to click 'like'?
did he ever thought that i will see that? and what will be my feelings like?
and.. its not just 1.. ended up with 2 for the day..

does he need to be so friendly? is it really needed?

i asked him what would he feel if he sees similar stuff abt me and other guys? would he not feel jealous? he said he will but he will also trust that there's nothing cos he believe that i will not do anything to upset him, just like he wont do anything to upset me.

if u love someone.. u will feel jealous and petty.. if u dun feel anything, it will be abnormal.

he asked me what does i want him to do? yes, i can set alot of restrictions.. restrict him to be friendly. but.. would it be of any use?


im an okay girl.. i can be okay with anything, almost everything.
but there are certain things i cannot go along with.. or at times.. hate it.
sorry.. it may be plain jealousy.. a very stupid feeling i know i shouldnt have.. but i just cannot control myself.