my at ic hse today. my dad called me suddenly. asked me abt ps2. abt the various games and the various options.

i directed him patiently at first. after some time, i gave up cos i din know which screen he was at. and i got pissed off. totally pissed off.

suddenly feel that.. he is dependent on me. everyone is dependent on me. i feel so tired. i feel.. breathless.

my hands and legs are tied up. i feels like doing something. for myself. for him. for us. but i know i cannot do it. i cant leave them alone, can i? it'll leave me worried. but somehow, someone has to scarifice, isnt it? if not, how are we going to work things out?

i want to put in effort. i really want to.

the more i think abt the future.. the more i am unsure of what is coming.
or rather, i know what is coming, but somehow, i just dont have the solution to it..


我知道很多人都不看好我们。。 觉得远距离的感情不会长久。。 或会很辛苦。
有时听了，蛮伤心的。。自己不知道要往哪想。。
是相信他们说的？还是相信我自己的心和他的心呢？