reached spore abt 1am+. slept at abt 2am+. went to work the next day. i was tired. but elmo said i was looking bright and chirpy. that was before lunchtime.

he gave me one bad news during lunch. said that his mum not very supportive of him coming back spore.

super sad. i insisted on him coming back. he called me. i even suggested paying for the air tickets. no matter how exp, i still wan him to come back. i thought maybe there are still hopes of him coming back if i were to pay for it.

we chatted at night. his mum was still against the idea. her reasons, frankly speaking, i cannot accept it. yes its true we just met, yes the air tickets are exp and not worth it, yes there are chinese doctors in thailand too.

but.. how often does he have holidays? twice a year? are we supposed to only meet twice a year? or i must be the one everytime going over to find him? i am like squeezing all my leave, all my time just to grab that little time we have together. dun mind not having enough rest and blah..

even if i have the money to get the air tickets, he's not coming back just because his mum said so.

he doesnt want to go against her wish. i understand he's in a damn difficult position. i dunno how i should behave now. should i be nice and understanding? should i be mean? should i be harsh? should i be angry? should i just smash everything i see and throw my temper? i dunno.......

he likes to talk abt long term. if in future, his parents are not going to give us their blessings, then what will happen? will he do the same thing again? not go against their wish?