Got woken up by a knock on the door.. His dad bought breakfast, fried chicken with sticky rice.. I wasn't feeling too good cos of the ice cream the day before.. So I didn't eat much...

Needed to go the market to buy guavas, pomelos and sausage.. Packed bag. And finally told him about what I've felt for the past 1 month plus.. He was upset. But I told him, yes if we do have a future together, our future is gonna be tougher than others. But he could choose to give up.. As for me, its either with him or alone for the rest of my life. But right now, they are gonna be my prority..

I thought I could bear to leave him and go home peacefully.. But actually I do miss him and cannot bear.. But then how, we can't have 2 unhappy persons, right? One just have to be stronger.... And since he was damn upset, I had to be strong.

I chose this way.. And so, no matter how tough, I'm gonna bear with it.. It may mean 1 or 2 months plus of separation, few days of happiness, sending each other off at the airport, moments of sadness, periods of selfish thinking, hoping he could give up everything for me or me giving up everything for him. But we are all in our comfort zones, with no one giving in at the moment.. All I can think of is not to think for the future.. We'll just live by the moment.