friday. i took half day. my skin's sensitive again, red itchy and painful. so i went to the ponggol clinic.

thereafter when i got home, knew that almost all the BEs got pay adjustment letter, woo!! and elmo gets promoted! i am so happy for her! i thought that she will stop at BEA since she's not willing to take up cases. well whatever it is, i am still happy for her! ok, i haven got my letter, so i dunno how is the pay adjustment, anyway having is better than none. hahahaha!

sat morning. i rec a sms that says "congras on ur promotion".. ?? well i din know who it was.. i stared at the number for long trying to recall the number. after some time, i recalled and if i rem correctly, it was gary. i replied saying "i get promoted? i dun even know it, how you know?"

he replied saying "u wanna bet?" hmm i din reply cos i din know what to write and.. i din want to raise my hopes till so high... anyway i'll know it on monday. actually i dun think i will get promoted, cos i have not been doing as much as elmo and i dun think i will get promoted. i just dun think so....

i feel depressed lately. dunno why. just dun feel interested in anything. feel so meaningless. feel so lethargic. i really dunno why. i keep worrying, abt my own health, abt my parents' health and seems like there are tons of things for me to worry abt.. ... yes, i do tell myself to BREATHE hard at times. telling myself that these are little obstacles or there's nothing much i can do by worrying.

well.. maybe its a stage that everyone's has to go through? ...