friday. i had classes. i was tired after the conversation the previous night.
i had problems working the whole day. almost wanted to give up going for my class. but i din, and im glad i din.

well, the speaker ended early at 9.50pm. i walked off quickly, hoping to catch the bus and reach home early.

but i wasnt sure if he will talk to me. reached home, saw his offline msg. he updated me abt his stuff.

i replied. we chatted. i had calmed down. i explained to him why i flared up the previous day. PMS bah. but he was feeling damn sorry.

i thought he was okay. until he said that he's doing the best things by not telling me what he wanted to say and not able to say... after seeing that, my heart just jumped. what is it that he wanted to say?

it was already late. i din want to hold up his sleep. but could i sleep without getting his answer?

he kept upsetting me recently. he's uncertain abt himself. he felt no confidence in himself. he felt that he dunno himself at all. he's not what he believed himself to be. he's worried he'll lose control again. he's not that sure anymore. not as sure as what he promised me earlier. what i had said to him.. had shook his confidence in himself.

he said.. how can i continue to trust him when now, he cannot even trust himself?