Lucky

I'm really lucky.. Part of my financial problems this month partially solved.. Part only.. But still, i'm thankful... Really.

Life has been good to me... I should not complain... Complain no more. I should not be unhappy.. Unhappy no more.

kemp is as impatient as me..
always wanted him to learn to be patient.. if he wants certain things, he has to learn to wait..

good things goes to the person who waits.

Nov going Bangkok and Genting.. Need to spend money...

Dec going Bangkok for 2 weeks... Need to spend money and leave money for parents...

Need to dig into savings....
=(

Question Mark

He wants me to call him... ..... So that he can proudly tell his friends that his GF called?

went to gym early in the morning.. had to pay $2.50 for entrance fee..
=( better stick to my company's gym..

had a heavy lunch..

and i'm flying again next week..

I think fate has been fair to me.. My life's good so far..
I should be contented... I shouldn't be unhappy...

I should be contented...

Actually its just plain jealousy..

人比人，气死人。

Borrowed my stuff to lend to bf... Pissed..

I hope the chinese medicine is working well for kemp...

Enter marriage with an open mind. Accept that all people have flaws, including yourself and the other party.
Do not think you can change the other person into the person you want him/her to be.

- Elmo

1 week to my Birthday..

Will it be a Happy Birthday..?

Life is meaningless.. With lots of problems and burdens..

I hate wednesdays..

***

We can't communicate.. He just don't get it..
He don't get what I mean.. And I don't get what he means..

I told him not to ask me things about my blog.. I didnt mind him reading my blog.. I JUST din want him to ask me about the unhappy things I wrote in my blog.. But he decided not to read my blog and ask me personally... Argh! I just din want him to ask me about unhappy things!!

I scolded him today.. Just because I wanted him to take good care of himself more.. But he took it that he cannot complain about his body to me.... ARgh!

He just dont get it.....

Too full.... Falling asleep in class...
Sharks...

=__=
I have got a big mole on my back....

Yp told me... Moles on arms = burdens...
She rem i had many moles on my arms.. And so i have many burdens...

She told me to go remove my moles.... And maybe my burdens will disappear...
Will it?

Nothing to say.. No encounters with bf or no interesting stories to share with them.. My life's been quiet, no interesting or fun happenings, thus no stories to share with them...

***
Stop asking her about the things she writes in her blog...
Stop asking her how She feels...

She feels nothing... Not happy not unhappy... Nothing interests her... Nothing makes her happy...
Neither is she unhappy....
Her mood now is like a mono tone.... One straight line... No ups no downs..

She looks forward to a break away from work.. Where She dont have to concentrate and think.. Need a break from worries or upsetting things....
Chocolates.. When eating them, She feels a sense of sweetness, and thats where She feels sweet and slight happiness... But as it melts away in her mouth, the slight happiness goes away too.... Then it goes back to mono tone...

Oh.. I also bought chocolates for myself... Thats the only thing that made me happy..
Chocolates.. Only when eating them then can I cheer myself abit...

Feeling sick today.. I think i din sleep well yesterday.. But woke up at 9 plus and got ready to go out for my facial..
After facial, i was feeling abit sick.. Then it rained.. I was caught in the rain.. Then i went to eat my lunch alone... Then shopped around in Bugis alone.. Wanted to buy something for myself but after calculating my budget, i realised i better not spend....

Wanted to go east coast... Even brought along a book with intentions to read at the beach.. But it was raining.. So decided to go back home... Actually din feel like going home but nowhere to go...

Din feel like eating dinner at home.. But din know where to spend my time at... Din want to bring them out for dinner cos i wanted kemp to know what he'll get for being naughty and that is no going out no having fun...

Then i realised it was time for grocery shopping at NTUC.. And so i decided to ask them out for grocery shopping but dinner was to be tabao home... So i called and we went jurong point NTUC....

Kemp was naughty and i smacked his face outside.. His face showed me that he was unhappy...
But i din care... When he got home, my dad got fed up with him and smacked him too.. And that made him cried and of course alot of noise thereafter...

Sick... Cant even have a quiet dinner... Regret asking them to go NTUC..

Worse thing is.. Even though my dad and i smacked him... He still got his grandmum.... And my mum even stopped me from smacking him more when he quietened down.... Sick...

I'm sick of all these.... Sick of all the noise...
I just want a quiet environment... All by myself...

=(
something wrong.. error uploading the video...
=(

Finally the weekends.. Its been a long day at work the last few days... Reached office at 8+, somedays ending at 7pm.. even 8pm+...
Tiring...

I can finally rest today and tomorrow...

Hopefully I can upload my fireworks video today.... *prays hard*

Yeay its nearly 1... 2 more hours and i'll be out of the cage...
Tom yam fried rice, fried mee, sweet sour fish, vegetarian fish, vegetables, curry chicken for lunch!

Yippee... Looking forward to the release...

***

What a contradiction... We want to reduce duplication... And reduce duplicates work... But in this 5 days, we have been doing so much so much duplicate work... Writing the same things over and over again......
Question is... Can we really reduce duplicate work?
Lol.... Shakes head..

I'm still at the workshop.. Its ending soon but at 3pm.. Hopefully..
Had my morning teabreak and looking forward to the lunch.. I hope it ends real soon.. Feeling sleepy now.

I miss office.. But not the work.. Its the freedom i have in the office that i miss.. Now i feel like a caged bird..

Ate thai food for lunch just now.. There was fried olive rice, papaya pok pok (his favourite..), green curry, fried chicken wing... Dessert was mango with glutinous rice... The sticky rice was damn sweet.. I suddenly recalled.. He loves to eat sticky rice.. Even without anything.. We will eat sticky rice with chicken wings, or BBQ pork... He'll eat all the sticky rice and leave all the meat to me....

He's running a fever now... Hope he get well soon... He's been having late nights....

Today is 20 Oct 2010, 20 10 2010, 20102010.

***
Sharks.. Feel like eating biscuits / crackers after dinner these days...
Argh.. Curb curb curb!!!!!

I think i'm getting abit gan chiong over my reports.. 2 reports due end of Oct. 1 is sent for vetting and the other 1, I have not submitted yet...

And next week, I'm on course on tue, wed and thurs.. Which means i'm only left with Monday...

Stressed... Wanted to go back office after the workshop today... But the stupid workshop ended at 7... Decided to go home straight...
But I think I'll go back office after the afternoon teabreak tmr...
I must submit my 2nd report tmr....

I guess thats why I sounded sian and probably fierce to him just now... Sorry.

Tired.. Goodnite.

I miss the tomyam yong tau fu.... Miss the fishballs and fishcakes..... Miss the transparent noodle.....
So yummy..... I miss all that.....
=(

=(

I wanted to upload the fireworks video.. Started at 9.30pm.. Now is 10.30pm.. But its still not done.. Haiz..

I don't think I can wait anymore.. Need to sleep...

Maybe I'll do it during the weekends =(

I slept late last night cos i was trying to upload the fireworks video onto my blog... But i was tired of waiting and so i decided to cancel the uploading.... I'm sleepy now...

Anw i doubt anyone would appreciate the fireworks video...

***
He called me during lunch.. But i was having lunch with elmo..
Guess our timings clash..

I gotto wake up early and go out early for the rest of the week.. Cos of the workshop i'm having this week, starts at 8.30am till 6pm.
Next week i'm on 3 day course and i'm off for next next week as well.
Sounds busy huh? Don't know where to find time to finish my work..

I think i may find programs for myself this weekend and next weekend. Seriously don't feel like staying at home..
We'll see how...

=(

15 Oct to 17 Oct at Sentosa (Part II)

Festive Hotel at Sentosa










Skyride & Luge






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Candylicious

15 Oct to 17 Oct at Sentosa (Part I)

15 Oct 2010

"Dun talk rubbish ok? I'm just doing things that u want me to do. Maybe I didn't sound good. But trust me, everything I do, I have ur best interest at heart. I want to be there for u at all time. But I can't. I will do everything I could possibly do. But the best I can do is not what u need. Dun do stupid things. Ur parents need u. What will happen to them when you're gone? I said I won't contact u, since u dun want me to, doesn't mean u can't contact me. If u need me for anything at all, call me, mail me, sms me. I'll be there. Its just goodbye for now. Until u want to talk to me, until u r ready, until u find someone else. Its not that I want to give u away. But u really need someone beside u rite now. I can't be that someone, so I shouldn't be the one to stop u from what u need. Just dun keep that option close. Growing old alone is no fun. Until u can get over this, then I will move on. Either with u, or without, depending on u. Let me do the waiting now ba."

***

16 Oct 2010

"Pls, dun do anything silly. Everything was ur choice. So stick with what u think is right. Have no regret in what u do. Even if it dun succeed, you still know that u did ur best. When all else fail, then come back to me. I'll wait for u till that day. Even if it meant too late to have kids together. Doesn't matter. Just dun do anything silly. I'll wait. I'll be there."

Just finished work. Din feel like going home tdy. But i had nowhere to go, plus hungry and din want to eat outside cos i wanted to save money and so i reached chinese garden...

Guess i'll stay in my room after dinner...

Really fed up with kemp.. I thought as one grows older, one will be more sensible? Nah i was wrong, he's really like his mother.
He is naughtier.. Fed up with him, i scolded him throughout our stay at sentosa. Even scolded him outside and i was like a crazy auntie scolding some kid.

He's too much. Throwing temper at the slightest thing that doesnt happen the way he wants. Scolding me back and showing his face (like his mum!) when he gets scolded. Bullying his grandparents. Expecting his grandparents to feed him just because he dun wan to get his hands dirty.

Really hate my parents for spoiling him and giving in to him always.
Me spoil him too? Used to but stopped long time ago. Even now, i only reward him when he's really good. I do smack him when he's naughty.

He used to listen to me. But now? Haiz.

Hate him for making so much noise at home. Hate those ppl who overly dote on him.

I wanted to post photos of Sentosa.. But guess not. Or maybe not today, not now. Not sure, haven decided if I want to post the photos...

The reason why I wanted to post photos was because I wanted to share with him the places that I went.. without him.

Well... nvm.. GOod nite.

He thought i've chosen the way i wanted, i liked, i preferred.
Its not the way i want, i like or prefer but i've no choice.

I've been controlling my tears for the past 2 days.. There was no way i could find a space for myself to cry.. Nowhere.
I managed to leave them and be on my own. And i cried on the bus. The tears were fast and uncontrollable... Supposed to go to my another nephew's birthday celebration but no, i decided to miss it so that i could go back to my space.....

If i'm selfish enough, hard hearted enough, i would have left them long time ago...
I find myself repeating myself these days.. I think i gotto stop all these. If it doesnt get understood.. I'm leaving it like this.
Goodbye.

Just now i was buying coffee.. And the stupid staff spilled the coffee onto me. I had coffee on my legs as well as on the shorts he bought me..

There are stains on the shorts now... =(
Can i wash it away? Can it be returned to its original look?

Felt like complaining. Felt like scolding the stupid staff. I felt very angry... But i dunno what to do next..
I can only leave the stains on...

No, i din make a wrong choice. Truth is i din have a choice in the first place..

Did i have a choice of taking care of my parents and kemp and not taking care of them?
I hate my sister. Hate her for bringing kemp to this world. Hate her for bringing troubles to us. She's stuborn useless, let her lead her own stupid life. Why must she bring kemp to this world to trouble everyone of us?

Alright i'm blaming everyone else except for myself..
I'm wrong, i'm at fault..
Its not that "i do what i want".. Its "i don't have a choice, i HAVE to fulfill this responsibility as much as i don't like it"....

I hope i can get rid of such life..

Did i make a wrong choice in choosing to make my parents happy instead of making the person i love most happy?

I thought my parents would be happy.. Instead not really.
But what is confirmed is that the one i love most is upset now..

Did i make the wrong decision again?
I keep doing the wrong things..... =(

***
I bought chocolates again.... The chocolates happy enzymes don't work....
Why am i not cheered up?


Chocolates make my stomach bloated everytime....
Super bloated...
I'm stressed too. I'm not happy too.

I need to die...

Did i say the wrong things?
Did i do the wrong things again?

Feel bad, feel guilty.
I'm feeling confused..

I feel like taking half day tmr. Was thinking abt it in the afternoon... And then i decided to take half day tmr, told my leave cover and applied.. But my boss haven approve...

And then i met my parents for dinner... Told my mum i'll bring her to bugis tmr afternoon and then vivo and then to sentosa to wait for my dad... She din look very happy.... Seeing her face, i begin to think if my decision to take half day was wrong.. Then i hesitated.. Hesitated...

When i reach home.. I decided to cancel my half day tmr..

Indecisive huh? Recently.. Very bad at making decisions.. Can't trust my own judgement.. Begin to doubt myself... Dunno if im doing all the right things.... Haiz.

***
i should be sleepy... But somehow i can't get to sleep.

他真的要我等他？
可是我不知道我可以还是不可以。。。
我好累。。

Waiting for my acupuncture.. She's busy today.

Friends are busy to entertain me.. Its okay.. I have my blog to turn to..

Looking forward to my stay at Festive Hotel at Sentosa this weekend.. Yeay.. I've always liked to stay in hotels.. Although its only Sentosa.. But its enough to cheer me up.. Hope we'll have a happy time... Slacking and enjoying the hotel stay.. =)

Whenever i see his missed calls, his emails, the only things that come to my mind is our differences, our problems. I'll be unhappy. I don't know how to talk to him like before.

When i hear no news from him, at least i don't think of the problems, unhappy things. I'm at least happier. I know this is called deceiving myself, i can ignore the problem when i dont get reminded. This is also called avoidance.

I know he loves me dearly. I feel like telling myself to cherish this very guy by my side.. But clearly, there are differences between us and there isn't any good solutions i can think of.. I also can't promise him anymore that i can indefinitely wait for him.

I'm now in a denial stage thinking that "out of sight, out of mind". Thinking that our problems dont exists as long as i dun "see" him....

I really dunno wat to do....

I admit i'm avoiding... And selfish in some sense... Sorry.

Mum's been easily agitated these few days.. Wonder why she isn't happy about going sentosa this weekend?

Agitated.. And of course shouting at kemp when he irritates her.. Oh well.. Tdy i'll be getting her and kemp's medicine from my acupuncturist and i hope her medicine will really help kerb my mum's temper and of course... Kemp..

Been watching tv after dinner nowadays..
Then eating junk food at 9 plus.. Then sleep at 10 plus...

Healthy to sleep at 10 plus... But not really healthy to eat junk food huh?
But mouth itchy......

Took the train back home today...
But need to alight at at JE mrt station because the train i was on was directed to the track heading to Woodlands, Ang Mo Kio....

So i got off... But it was crowded.. And we had to wait for the mrt heading towards Joo Koon to arrive... And it came.. Lucky i manage to squeeze in... And Finally home...

I agree that humans are mostly greedy.. What is enough? No matter how much you do, its never enough..

But too much is overwhelming for me.. If i receive too much of something, i'll take it for granted and ask for more... And won't appreciate things..

So let me feel i've lost it so that i would cherish more.... Please... Don't be too nice to me....

Fed up.. Mei mei looking to fix lunch appt with us and yet nobody wants to reply her email..
When asked, i get blamed for not replying...

Really dunno whats the problem... And so, i'm busy, she's busy, they're busy... Nobody's really free?
Frankly speaking, i wanted to reply but it slipped my mind....

Supposed to alight at chinese mrt station.. But just now i din manage to alight.. Dunno whether i was too slow in getting out or the people in front of me were too slow in getting out or the people at the entrance were blocking our way or the mrt doors closed too fast...

So many reasons....

I just didn't manage to get off at chinese garden.. Alighted at lakeside mrt and took the train back...

***
I need time... I need time to myself... I need some quiet...

I need to clear the water tray under the wet dishes everyday in case water don't get cleared and attracts breeding of mosquitos... Need to close the window in my parents' bedroom in case rain flood the room.. Need to boil water and rem to switch off the plug so that we'll have enough water for the next day.. Need to clear the fruits plate in the living room because my parents will forget after getting in their bedroom at 10pm...

I could do these things over and over again everyday for the next 10 years, 20 years... I could stay in my current job for the next 10 years..
I'm always a love-routine person....

Kemp used to be braver when he was young. Now that he gets older, he's more scared of injections.. Which is worrying.
He used to not fidget when injecting.. But now he fidgets alot which makes the injections difficult for us.. Tend to scold him for fidgetting but i guess nobody understands the pain as much as he does....

How to make him not fidget.. Troubling.

早知道没有结果的topic，为何还要问呢？
是希望问了就会有不同的结果？还是真的以为 ask and open your mouth and you'll get it?

太傻了。。

他骂我了。 可是我不生气。 反而我觉的很心痛。。

大家都一样自私。 我承任。

我真的不想和他吵架。
没有他的日子我怎么办。

I admit i'm selfish..
He flared up.. Scolded me.

Knowing i can't eat too much of it... I bought chocolates again.

2 chocolate bars.. Eating 1 bar now.
I can't be waiting indefinitely.. Please Tell me he'll be back 1.5 years later.

Had a hard time falling asleep last night.. Thought i'll be tired after going out in the afternoon but no, i didn't feel tired....
I'm so sleepy now.... How i wish i could skip work.. But no... Tdy we're shorthanded... Too much responsibilities i have.

I said before.. Its either with him or i'm alone.

But now.. Its either hAppily with him or if i'm lucky enough, with someone i don't love as much.

I'm really envious when i see other couples...

If you were by my side, we could bring kemp out together.. Really don't like him hanging out with his parents..
If you were by my side, you could help me to discipline kemp.. I won't be so discouraged, like now.
If you were by my side, you could be with me understanding kemp's medical condition. Unlike now, im the only one in charge of his medical condition, deciding what he can eat and cannot eat, the food's carbohydrates count, the dosage of insulin he takes everyday. Stressed sometimes...

We could work hard together, go home for dinner together, dinner cooked by my dad. If not we could go out for dinner, eat buffet or some nice food recommendations or watch movie that is just out.

We could even go JB during weekends.. We could even bring my mum n kemp along. I think if you are with us to JB, my dad will feel more assured.

On weekends we could go exercise together. Then we could spend one day ourselves outside. Be it shopping, walking around, eating or watching movies.. We could do things together.

Then on sundays, we could accompany parents, bring them out for dinner or whatsoever.

We could plan and save up for holidays. We could go taiwan, the place i missed badly. Or even short trip to malaysia. Short or long holidays, near or faraway places, i don't mind as long as we do it together...



Isn't that wonderful?

I guess his dreams may seem more wonderful than all these... But his dreams may not have me in the picture.. I may not be able to hold on for long.

HerE i am again.. At my favourite place.
But with a packet of chocolates this time.. Hoping that the chocolates enzymes can be of help to me.

What i really like about this place is the wind.. And the clouds. And the sound. Of cos not the sound of ppl chattering away....

Hope it can blow away some moodiness..

****
Kites are pretty.. And they seem carefree.. Flying up into the sky.... But still controlled by a string.

I went bugis.. Prayed for his speedy recovery.

Kemp's naughty. My sister's shouting. My family's noisy.

I'm upset. Whenever this happens, i begin to wonder if all the things i've done or things i'm choosing to give up is all worth it...

=(

People say i should live for myself.. I should make myself happy. I should... I should..
I really hope he'll come back... Really.

His future and me.

He's in hospital now. Suspected H1N1.
He was feeling feverish. And lost his appetite. And so he went to the doctor..

I told him today. That i was feeling lonely and tired. He said i was not alone.
I told him i really wanted someone by my side badly. I was really tired, really lonely. And the fact that he couldn't come back and i couldn't go over made it worse...

He cried again at the facts.. He was upset.

Did i make a wrong decision? Did i hurt him? Is he okay now?
Am i wrong.. Again?
Did i just push away the right guy for me?

He's really nice, nice person and nice to me n everything else..
I really hate this kind of ending... Did i just make a wrong decision?

I'm confused.. Troubled.. I don't know if i did it correctly.. I don't know if i made the right decision for myself.
Did i do the right thing?
Or was i lost... N said hurtful things to him....?

I'm just too tired.... Tired of loneliness..

I'm tired. Tired of being alone. Tired of supporting my parents n kemp alone.

I'm lonely. I need someone to be by my side.... I thought i could be independent. I thought i could leave everything here. But i realised... I cannot....

All about HIM

He would ask if i've eaten, if i've slept well the previous night, if i'm still feeling sick or unwell (if i told him previously that i did...).
He would remember my favourite food, would remember the food that i don't and can't eat.. He would ask if i'm feeling too cold. He would ask if i'm in a bad mood, would listen to me whilst i scream n throw my temper.

He's patient whereas i'm impatient.
He would be sensitive to my needs. He doesn't mind my hair problem.

In this relationship, he's more of the girl and me the guy. I'm more practical n logical. He's more emotional n sensitive.

When we quarrel, he's the first to give in.
He will try his best not to do things that will make me angry or upset.

I'm possessive and he gives in to that...

The Last Lecture by Dr Pausch

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:

1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

***
one of my favourite books...

ISFJ relationships

ISFJs place a great deal of importance on their personal relationships. They're generally very giving and loving people, who place the needs of others above their own. They sometimes have a problem with becoming overly emotionally needy, and with keeping their true feelings hidden from others. They take their commitments very seriously, and seek lifelong relationships. ISFJs are extremely dependable, and put forth a lot of energy into keeping things running smoothly. They sometimes have difficulty saying "no" when asked to do something, and therefore may be taken for granted.

ISFJ

ISFJs generally have the following traits:

Large, rich inner store of information which they gather about people
Highly observant and aware of people's feelings and reactions
Excellent memory for details which are important to them
Very in-tune with their surroundings - excellent sense of space and function
Can be depended on to follow things through to completion
Will work long and hard to see that jobs get done
Stable, practical, down-to-earth - they dislike working with theory and abstract thought
Dislike doing things which don't make sense to them
Value security, tradition, and peaceful living
Service-oriented: focused on what people need and want
Kind and considerate
Likely to put others' needs above their own
Learn best with hands-on training
Enjoy creating structure and order
Take their responsibilities seriously
Extremely uncomfortable with conflict and confrontation


ISFJs have two basic traits which help define their best career direction: 1) they are extremely interested and in-tune with how other people are feeling, and 2) they enjoy creating structure and order, and are extremely good at it. Ideally, the ISFJ will choose a career in which they can use their exceptional people-observation skills to determine what people want or need, and then use their excellent organizational abilities to create a structured plan or environment for achieving what people want. Their excellent sense of space and function combined with their awareness of aesthetic quality also gives them quite special abilities in the more practical artistic endeavors, such as interior decorating and clothes design.



Possible Career Paths for the ISFJ:

Interior Decorators
Designers
Nurses
Administrators and Managers
Administrative Assistants
Child Care / Early Childhood Development
Social Work / Counselors
Paralegals
Clergy / Religious Workers
Office Managers
Shopkeepers
Bookkeepers
Home Economics

"Wife of Singapore's Lee Kuan Yew dies at 89

The wife of Singapore's founding father, Lee Kuan Yew, whom the statesman called his "great source of strength and comfort", died Saturday at the age of 89, a government press statement said.

Lee's wife, who was born Kwa Geok Choo, was also the mother of Singapore's current prime minister, Lee Hsien Loong.

Prime Minister Lee was rushing back to Singapore from Brussels, where he had been attending a meeting of Asian and European leaders, Channel NewsAsia reported.

"Mrs Lee Kuan Yew, age 89, passed away peacefully at home today at 5.40 pm," the government's statement said. "A private funeral will take place on 6th October... at Mandai Crematorium."

Lee was hospitalised on May 12 after she suffered a stroke and was found with bleeding in the right side of her brain.

She underwent surgery and was making progress before suffering further bleeding on June 24 that left her critically ill.

In his autobiography, Lee Kuan Yew, now 87, said he and "Choo" had attended the same Singapore college, where to his horror she was placed first ahead of him in their English and economics exams.

Their relationship developed later and, before he left for England to study, he had decided she was the one for him.

"I wanted someone my equal, not someone who needed looking after," the elder Lee explained in his autobiography.

They married secretly in December 1947, while both were studying law at Cambridge in England, before Lee embarked on his long political career, throughout which his wife was at his side.

"She was a great source of strength and comfort," Lee wrote, adding that his wife corrected the drafts of his dictated speeches.

"I made a point, however, not to discuss the formulation of policies with her, and she was scrupulous in not reading notes or faxes that were sensitive," he wrote.

Lee, one of Asia's elder statesmen, first took office as prime minister in 1959. He retired in 1990 but currently holds the influential cabinet rank of minister mentor in his son's government.

The Lees also have a daughter, prominent doctor Wei Ling, and another son, Hsien Yang, a top corporate executive.

In a New York Times interview last month, the elder Lee said that his wife had been "inert in bed" for the past two years but was still cognitive.

"She understands when I talk to her, which I do every night. She keeps awake for me, I tell her about my days work, read her favourite poems," the elder Lee told the US newspaper.

Wei Ling, a neurosurgeon, wrote in the Straits Times newspaper in June that her parents were also best friends.

"They are not only lovers, they are also best friends. There has never been any calculation about how much each had invested in the relationship. Theirs is an unconditional love," she wrote."

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I read Mr Lee Kuan Yew's autobiography before.. I read about their love story... It was touching.. And how sad I feel now about Mrs Lee's death...

It is indeed one of those kind of touching and everlasting love stories.