Stress Part II

This is really taking a toll on me... 

I really wanted to go destress yesterday, wanted to go KTV with YP at night.  But I dunno why, I had diarrhoea after breakfast and was feeling weak and terrible the whole afternoon.  Didnt have appetite for dinner... I weighed myself at night - I lost 1kg immediately. 

I was looking forward to destressing.  I needed 1 badly... 

I dunno when all these is going to end... Before it ends, I already feels like ending myself.  

Tired.  Really tired.  I just want to keep sleeping and stay in my room not doing anything not needing to face anything.... And now I dont even feel hungry... Not in the craving for any food at all.  

This is upsetting.. I dont crave for food... 

Keane likes water!

I can bring him to swimming when he is older!! Lol.... 

Finally Friday!

Finally!! A busy week... And gonna be a busy weekend too. 

Brought work home... I think its enough to last me 2 days... I better finish all the work! 

A stressful period.. My body's been feeling weird recently.. I cannot describe what is happening but just weird.  

Went to Louise today and she says its because of stress.. Yes, I am stressed!! 

Not because of work... Because of the new house, my Dad and so many other things... Arghh! 

No wonder people say Stress is harmful.  Its true.. It can do alot more harm to your body than you thought.... 

Get over it!  Get over it!!! 

Happy Wednesday

It is nice to see good deeds done early in the morning.  

Seats are being offered immediately to OUR people in the MRT.. Our pure Singaporeans, our 建国一代。

下雨天

不管风雨多么大，我还是得一个人走。

Riders Cafe on Sat early morning

Had breakfast at Riders Cafe on Saturday morning.  Kitty is going Zurich for work for 2 months.. So we met before she left... Jiayou my dear! 

Sunday - Feeling sick :(

Felt sick... on a Sunday.

Spoiler... Not sure if it will recover by tmr... If not I will have to see doctor again.... 

But then... I think I asked for it... Drank coffee on a empty stomach and stomach was empty all the way till 12 plus... 

Lost appetite to eat and when I forced myself to eat, I felt nausea and bloated....

#$/+&^(₩)*$&#^@^!

I hate myself for being stupid! 

Saturday Morning

Woke up at 7 today.  Spent a morning out... Now wanting to nap... But... Cant get to sleep!

I miss my little boy!!

Sibling

How good it is... To have a sibling whom you can hang out with... To share family problems and worryings...To talk to....

I will never have this chance in this lifetime. 

Scaredy scaredy.. Over!

Yeah!  Finally finished my cleansing appointment! 

Although scared very scared... But I still managed to make my way there!  I want to just praise myself hard for that! Haha... 

I have to keep these appointments close enough... So that I can start as soon as I can.... 

My Sunday... Also with Keane!

Played badminton today!  

Fun... But tired.  Legs and arms aching... Hope my parents enjoyed.... 

My cute boy... Again. 

Some photos that I picked up somewhere and decided to post it

Keane's new stunt - playing with saliva!

Cutey

Sigh

It is disheartening to see how we have turned out to be like this.... 

China Desk

Surprised that Ber called me yesterday.  His team is actually looking for someone and he called to make sure I read his email... 

Actually morale is really low now with so many people leaving our department.  I am happy at the thought of working under Ber and TL again. But then the thought of having to write and speak in Chinese.... I really have lack of confidence in that.... 

12 years in the same department... I know its long enough.  

I cannot discuss this with my friends in the same department... I cannot discuss with my boss... Friends, they may not understand the job scope and etc.  I dunno who to discuss this with... The worst thing, I dunno what I want and I dont have any confidence. 

Year 2012

I had actually hoped for the end of the world to be true. 

And so...

My new IC was issued on 5 Nov 2012... It was actually ready for collection.... But I received nothing from ICA. 

Anyways... I finally got it today and I recalled what happened in Nov 2012... 

He had helped edit my passport photograph.... And I got a special birthday present from him that year.  But I never got to see or feel anything.  He didnt have a chance to fulfil either. 

On Leave

Today's leave is so unrelaxing... Woke up late in the morning... Decided to bring Dad to see the chinese physician first before going to do my NRIC in the afternoon. 

So so anxious before seeing the physician.... Waited for quite long... I hope the medicine that we need to brew for my Dad works... *Prays hard*

Thereafter went for Vicom Inspection before we could renew the road tax.  But we didnt pass the 1st round because of a stupid lighting at the rear of the car.  Went to the workshop to have it rectified and then back to Vicom.  Finally inspection passed and road tax renewed.  

Now the car is back to workshop because we decided to change the aircon cooling coil and do some servicing.... A hole in my pocket!! Sobs... 

As long as everything works.... I dont mind... Really.... Anything that works.... 

"从今以后，你会是所有幸福的理由。"

National Day Weekend

I have enjoyed this National Day weekend.. Started with a staycation at The Westin (thanks to YP).

A dip in the infinity pool although it was freaking freezing cold... Took alot of photos.. 

Then watched the fireworks at night... Although we are not able to watch the entire fireworks but hearing the sounds of it and the atmosphere, it was really enough for me.  

Supper at LPS.  Seriously I have never been to LPS at night... Then back to hotel.  Had a hot bath and climbed into the cosy bed... We watched tv and slept very soon.. We were both tired especially after the pool activity and the worse thing is we didnt even swim!  I wonder what made us so tired.... 

Woke up at 9 plus and we decided to have brunch!  Washed up cleared things and we left the hotel.  

Took a bus to Prive.  The pancakes were so yummy! 

Reached home.  Keane had come over our house.  This little guy is so cute!  Although he was quite noisy.. But making and seeing him laugh really makes my day.  And I went a long way just to get his KFC whipped potato for him.  

Nice weekend I had.  But feeling tired now.  Didnt have a good sleep at the hotel yesterday.  Tmr is the start of a long week.  Gambatei! 

Brunch at The Prive

The pancakes are yummy!! 

Staycation at The Westin Singapore

I have to repost this again. Seeing him makes makes me day!

TGIF?!

Feels refreshed... But its Friday! Yeah! 

Back to work after 2 days of tedious workshop and 2 days of rest this week... Time to clear work again... But I aim to leave early today!  加油!!

My day

I finally forked out enough courage to drive to KK today.  

It was a last minute decision..  If not I guess I would have a sleepless night... 

And so...I started.  Jam on the PIE first... Then I exited correctly.. Then I reached a road where I actually took the wrong route.. There it is!!! I took the wrong road and I was lost!!! 

I was so anxious... I didnt know what to do and Google Maps was re-routing.... Anyways I told myself to go straight in case of uncertainty.... Then Google Maps finally reworked and gave instructions again... I went 1 big round and finally finally I reached KK!  

Late for Kemp doctor appt... We were lucky... The doctor had free time and so we could see him immediately and skipped the diabetics nurse.  We even finished early today.... 

But I had lost confidence in my sense of directions... Was afraid to drive to places where I didnt know the road... I was really scared.  

After advice given by my dad, we decided to leave Blackie at KK and took the shuttle bus to Bugis.  Thereafter we would take the shuttle bus back to KK 

and drive Blackie home.  

Thats what I did.  Traffic jam on PIE again on the way back home.  And finally back back home.... 

An experience.. But I lost confidence in Google Maps... It didnt tell me to stay on the road which I should!  Sigh.... 

Antibiotics

It sure acts fast.... Just after 1 dose, my sore throat pain went away.. Fast and furious.  

I really really want to spend time with my parents.... 

Keane

Keane Sitting up.  But he is so kiasu, he just got to hold on to his legs while sitting up!  Very tightly.  No matter how hard you push him, he wont fall back!  

Rest

Finally end of the darned 2 days workshop.... But I finally fell sick also.  

After days of non-quality sleep... I am sick now... Down with sore throat.  Pain pain pain.... 

Seeing doctor tmr.... 

This made me day!

Somehow... Looking at this conversation.... Made me laughed.... Its so funny..... 

Girls talk??!! Hahaha.... 

Projects projects

I love projects... Yet I hate projects... Its a love-hate thing.

星期六

用了一天的时间逃避了生活的压力。

现在。。又回到了现实。 

现实，现实。。

七夕情人节

Happy Valentine's Day.

Happy... ME day.

I am alone at home today..... until night time.

I booked the court again... for another round of Badminton.

One of the Sundays this month.. Excited and happy!!

Emo Friday

Feeling real tired.... Not having good sleeps these few days... 

Been having dreams... weird dreams... And last night, I just couldnt sleep.  All despite I took sleeping medicine.  

Tonight... feels like taking double doses... I need good sleep desperately.  

Think Dad is unhappy with me for skipping tmr's family gathering with my aunt family.  But seriously I couldnt care more.... I need rest, need ME time... 

Missing 1 person, an unimportant person dont really matter right?  Unless he is expecting me to be the chaffeur... But I am really tired, seriously lacking good sleep... 

Can I just take a day off?? Sigh

My weekends are almost burnt... Cos he will go out play mahjong and I have to be the one in charge of their dinner and outing.... Sigh. 

Is this.... Burnt out?  Whatever....