din really sleep last night. but had to wake up early at 5.30am this morning. promised my mum that i will bring ah boy and acc her to the botanic gardens with her group of friends.

and so.. i woke up.

thought abt last night. i am seriously very scared. but i have to console him. so i drafted something to email to him.

i thought. maybe he was too stressed abt being a good bf to me and too stressed over the fact that he din want to make me upset. and he had made me upset recently. and so he felt he had failed as a bf. the 1st upset thing. the
2nd upset thing. and the 3rd upset thing... and he started to doubt himself. he thought he could do it, make me happy, be a good bf to me. but things hasnt been going the way he wanted it to be. instead, whatever he does, he made me upset. and so, he's starting to doubt himself, started to lose confidence in himself.

and so.. in my email. i explained to him. i told him, that was not the case. i encouraged him.
and that he doesnt have to be so stressed over it.

i dunno whether he seriously felt better after reading my email. i reaally dunno. i cannot see his face. i cannot feel him. i have to take whatever he told me.